"Oh, it's just you."
As I entered into my freshman year of college, I had no idea what I was about to experience. Everything that I was comfortable with seemed like it was being ripped away from me all at once and I had no idea how to respond to it. I tried to convince myself that I was loving this new chapter and that I was having the “time of my life” like everyone told me I would be. Even if I knew that I wasn't sincerely happy and joyful about life, I never wanted to admit that to myself. All at once I soon came to a state of acceptance and realization: I was not okay.
Each morning, I would wake up and think to myself, “I wonder when I am going to get upset today.” I would go through the motions of each day and then I would get a random burst of sadness. I couldn't even pinpoint what it was that was making me feel so down, all I knew was that everything around me was dark and there was nothing I could say or do that would make me feel happy again.
After a couple of weeks of total darkness, a girl from an on campus ministry I had been going to came up to me in the cafeteria. It was, of course, another lonely and sad day, and as hard as I tried to cover up my hurt, I burst into tears as soon as I started talking to her. I didn't even have to say that much before she began to pray for me and after this, everything began to change.
While I was talking to Madison, she told me a story about a man named Smith Wigglesworth. In the story, Smith woke up in the middle of the night from bad dreams. Once he woke up, he looked around his room and saw Satan himself sitting on the end of his bed. Instead of being afraid, the man looked at the devil and said “Oh, its just you” and went back to sleep.
Oh, its JUST you. Its JUST you, Satan.
The Bible tells us that Satan roams around like a roaring lion, seeking people to devour (1 Peter 5:8) and that he comes to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). But you see— the enemy has NO power over our lives. He can lie to you and throw temptations and strongholds in your path, but he CANNOT overtake you. Our God has already won this fight on the earth and in heaven and all we have to do is claim the victory that Jesus has for us. The joy of the Lord is our strength (Nehemiah 8:10). Our Father is the Prince of Peace. Jesus was nailed to the cross to cleanse us of our sins and then overcame death & rose to life, and because of this, DEATH will DROWN in VICTORY.
My depression that I was experiencing was not from the Lord. The constant thoughts of destruction and anxiety were sent straight from the devil & it was an attack from the enemy that I will no longer accept. So now, I will claim the joy, I will overflow in the peace, and I will rejoice in the victory that my sweet Jesus has for me.
And what do I have to say to you, Satan?
“Oh, its just you.”
"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly." John 10:10
