You are abruptly and unexpectedly acquainted with resentment and the agony of confusion. You are unable to distinguish anger from sadness and you are relentlessly consumed with frustration. Your sense of self-worth is nonexistent and your self-esteem wanes like a crescent moon. You feel silly.
Maybe you aren’t in love, but someone you have love for, respect, admire and tell all of your secrets to has betrayed you in such a foreign, painful way. You feel humiliated and disrespected. You feel the pain changing and molding you into someone bitter and untrusting. Your secrets are no longer safe and you were lied to like it was easy...like it was no big deal. You feel used, taken for granted, ignored and unappreciated. No matter what you do, you don’t feel good enough for him. You tell yourself that you should have known, but console your thoughts with saying, “I guess everything happens for a reason…”
What if there is a strange twist? What if, after all of the formerly mentioned, you end up together? What if there is a happily-ever-after filled with love, fun and laughter? Well, it happens; plenty of couples get together after a really rocky start. But, is it worth it to wait around and find out?
I love Grey's Anatomy. Besides Jesse Williams being absolutely amazing, I am totally in love with Ellen Pompeo, the actress who plays Meredith Grey. Her quotes have always resonated with me and I'm sure with the other zillion viewer as well.
“I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know we’re better off letting go of. It’s like we’re scared to lose what we don’t really have. Some of us say we’d rather have something than absolutely nothing, but the truth is, to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.”—Meredith Grey Grey’s Anatomy.
My relationship started off rocky. Not the kind of rocky where there’s no hope, but rocky nonetheless. Our relationship really just sort of happened. It didn’t expect that things would turn around for the better. Heck, in all honesty, I thought just the opposite. Yes, sometimes couples live happily-ever-after post emotional trauma and drama, but do not wait around for a man (or woman) to have a change of heart. Stick up for yourself, have some dignity and do not allow the actions of someone else to diminish your self-worth or dignity. You do not have to linger, beg or cry, because I promise, he (or she) is not the only fish in the see.
