I fell madly in love once upon a time, and just as quickly, the flames of love were blown out like the candles on a birthday cake. But just like a birthday, love finds you again. I dream of the day you find me, the next boy who will allow me to feel again, and believe in the goodness of love. Until the day you find me or come forward, I thought I'd tell you five things you should know before taking that leap of faith along with me.
1. Be ready to keep up with me.
For as long as I could remember, I've always been on the run, and as I've grown older I have decided that I'd like to conquer the world. Just kidding, I probably won't conquer the world, but I've never been willing to stop my dreams and goals. I have the thirst to learn everything possible and do anything possible. But in the end, all I could ever want is your support. So sit next to me and buckle up, because our time together will be quite the adventure.
2. I am 100 percent completely awkward.
Sometimes I fail with words verbally and my jokes are completely awful. Not to mention, that I get extremely nervous when telling a boy my feelings, which often resorts to not speaking about my feelings at all. But in the end, I'd rather you make me tell you what's on my mind and you make me feel better when I'm in an awkward situation. So, let's act like children and watch Tangled together and make bad jokes with one another until we cry of laughter. I don't need you to remind me that I'm awkward, I know and I've accepted it as a part of my charm. Plus, if you're just as awkward as me, then I consider us a match-made in heaven.
3. I won't let you in all the way, but I want you to find your way.
I hate talking about my feelings and usually when I do talk about them, it's because I've held them in for too long. I only dream that we've created such an amazing friendship first that you follow behind me when I walk away because you know I'm about to cry, or you defend me when someone tries to put me down because you know I'd rather walk away from an argument rather than waste time-fighting. I need you to be the person who calls me out to keep me grounded. I never tell my secrets because I want you to know me enough to see it rather than be told.
4. Teach me.
I have the ultimate thirst for learning and having the opportunity to exchange my knowledge with someone else. I hope for intellectual conversations where we both teach each other something we could've never have imagined. Let me talk to you about the newest book I've read while you inform me about the latest developments in sports or news from around the world. Fulfill my need of knowledge.
5. Don't protect me from the truth.
I've lived the relationship where someone ended things with me because they couldn't bear the thought of hurting me, or they simply wouldn't tell me things after we established we'd be friends. I may be a complete sweetheart and I do wear my heart on my sleeve, but that doesn't give you an opportunity to think that you're doing me a favor by lying. I'm a grown girl, and though some things may take me out by my knees, I always come back swinging harder than the last.
For the next boy who falls in love with me, I promise to you that I'll give you all of my heart...I also remain true to my word.
