Friendships end.
Relationships end.
People leave. You leave people. It's a part of life. But just because you're no longer in my life, doesn't mean I stop caring and wanting what's best for you.
I see the Facebook posts, Snapchat stories, and Instagram photos. I see the gorgeous new girlfriend, the new puppy you just got, and the promotion - congrats to each of you on them all. I see the sadness, the loss of your grandma who meant so much to you, and the upsetting news from the doctor - I'm sorry you each had to face that. I may not comment or "like" it on social media, but my heart screams with joy for your exciting times and aches with sorrow for your hard times.
It takes every ounce in my body sometimes to not shoot you the text making sure you're okay when I see you struggling. Sometimes it slips, and I get the response I knew was already coming, "I'm fine."
I don't send the message to have the need-to-know on your life. I don't want to know your next move, your feelings, or what you've been up to. I genuinely want to make sure you're okay and give you someone to let those thoughts escape to. I know we may not be who we were before, but my ears will listen to your secrets and my heart will care, regardless.
Because at one time, you made a difference in my life. You were my best friend who would sit around for hours drinking wine, eating crap food, and binge-watching Gossip Girl. You were my then-boyfriend who I spent every weekend with learning new things about you. I had love for you at one point in my life, and I always will; regardless of any wrong you may have done. It's who I am, and I'm not sorry for it.
Don't get me wrong, do I want you back in my life? Not particularly. Everything happens for a reason and our paths stopped crossing for reasons we both may or may not know. We've both been doing just fine without each other thus far, but that doesn't mean I won't care about you.
Please never hesitate to reach out to me when you need someone to vent to, to share your successes with, to just talk to. You have my number, my Facebook, my Snapchat, etc. It will get to me somehow. I will always be there.
Love never fades, it simply transforms. It may not be the love I once had for you as a friend, boyfriend, or whatever we were, but it is a love that I will always have for your well-being. I will never be sorry for it. Just know there is always someone who cares - who supports you and who hates to watch you struggle.
