Even When You Don't Understand All You Need To Do Is Trust

Even When You Don't Understand All You Need To Do Is Trust

All I could think was "something's going to happen." And even in the doubt, I just went… I trusted.

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Two years ago I had a really beautiful, tearful, yet closeness experience with the Lord.

In this season of my life, I was struggling with trusting the plan God had for me. I struggled to really get this huge grudge off my heart. To try to find rest and shake this feeling that overpowered me. I struggled to accept, and at times I still find myself with this issue, and I didn't trust. But then it all began with a thought…a trust to go.

Mass started at noon, and I usually never go to daily mass. I usually go every Sunday. But at 11:50 a.m. I got a feeling to get in my car and go to church. All I could think was "something's going to happen." However, I also had the thought of "no don't go, stay home and finish what you need to do because if you go you won't get what you need to get done." But I went… I trusted.

As I rush with 10 minutes to throw something on for mass I left just repeating "Jesus help me understand why I'm doing this." I said this the whole ride there. As I arrived I sat in the first pew and proceeded to listen to God's word and really open my heart, also trying to find a million ways to shake this doubt off.

As mass ended I still didn't understand. All of a sudden one of the parishioners stated how the rosary was going to be said after. Now, I'm going to be honest with you all, I don't pray the rosary and I should.

So, as I proceed to leave I got the feeling to stay. So I did and I took out my red rosary and kneeled down.

As we begin the parishioner states "this is for the people who are doubting, who needs Jesus to show them that he is the way and that his plan is beautiful, and for our own intentions" and I literally looked up at the cross and tears came flowing like a river down my face. During the rosary I got chills up and down, they wouldn't stop at all. Every Hail Mary and Glory Be I said I cried harder.

During the third joyful mystery, I got a huge overflow of peace, love, and that feeling of everything will be okay. I smiled so big, and it felt like I was new, and it was like I never shed a tear.

As I left I knew that this was the "something will happen." That was him telling me what he wanted me to do & that his plan was something I needed to realize what he CAN do. With him, beauty happens and your mind understands in a way he can only make you understand.

After I left I gave myself a little pep talk in the church parking lot. But, it wasn't your usual pep talk you give to yourself. The words were so deep that I knew it wasn't me saying it to myself. The words that were coming out of my mouth so lovingly, so perfect, so delicate, and each word flowed to the next I can't even wrap my head around it.


"Trust in me, don't doubt. I know it's hard to trust because of all the people who let you down and will on this Earth, and it's hard to trust in the plan you are walking through. But know that I will never leave you, I will never let go of your hand, and I have a great plan for you more than you will ever know. I know what's best for you. I am Kings above all Kings, I am the one who created you so you can have new life. I am the one who put you through it all so you can transform into the person you are today. You are special to me, you are my child… my precious child. I love you more than you'll ever know, I won't let anything happen to you so stop doubting, trust. Without me your life will not be filled with my abundant joy and presence. You're making me proud always remember that. And know that one day it'll all make sense. Just trust in me."

From Jesus to me, and now to you always know to trust in him because the plans he has for you is something so uniquely designed for you.

"Fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you."


-AKay

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17 Empowering Bible Verses For Women

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We all have those days where we let the negative thoughts that we're "not good enough," "not pretty enough" or "not smart enough" invade our minds. It's easy to lose hope in these situations and to feel like it would be easier to just give up. However, the Bible reminds us that these things that we tell ourselves are not true and it gives us the affirmations that we need. Let these verses give you the power and motivation that you're lacking.

1. Proverbs 31:25

"She is clothed with strength and dignity and she laughs without fear of the future."

2. Psalm 46:5

"God is within her, she will not fall."

3. Luke 1:45

"Blessed is she who believed that the Lord would fulfill His promises to her."

4. Proverbs 31:17

"She is energetic and strong, a hard worker."

5. Psalm 28:7

"The Lord is my strength and my shield."

6. Proverbs 11:16

"A gracious woman gains respect, but ruthless men gain only wealth."

7. Joshua 1:9

"Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

8. Proverbs 31:30

"Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised."

9. 1 Corinthians 15:10

"By the grace of God, I am what I am."

10. Proverbs 31:26

"When she speaks, her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness."

11. Psalm 139:14

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made."

12. 1 Peter 3:3-4

"Don't be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God."

13. Colossians 2:10

"And in Christ you have been brought to fullness."

14. 2 Timothy 1:7

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline."

15. Jeremiah 29:11

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'"

16. Exodus 14:14

"The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm."

17. Song of Songs 4:7

"You are altogether beautiful, my darling, beautiful in every way."

Next time you're feeling discouraged or weak, come back to these verses and use them to give you the strength and power that you need to conquer your battles.

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It's Okay To Be A Shattered Temple, God Doesn't Need You To Be A Perfect House

God wants to restore you because the scariest place for the enemy is the transformation from broken to healed.

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So right now it's 6:09 a.m., the house is so quiet I can hear it breathing. The wind slightly knocking against the walls like an unwelcome guest. The heat running through the pipes bringing warmth to each section of the house. The rain from the skies kissing the roofs and windows. I just thought how intricate and specific each role plays. How on its own it must feel inconsequential, but together completes its purpose.

In the Bible, a house/temple is referred to as a body often. We sing songs, "Lord, make me a house of prayer." But in some seasons, we doubt the very thing we asked God for as if it wasn't already designed for us.

Sometimes in our walks, we question our purpose. We don't see the grand scheme. On why we went through what we did, or why we currently are. We want explanations for everything because if our human minds can't comprehend it that means it was in vain. I have wrestled with this concept, the "Why me?" the "I didn't/don't deserve this" and lastly, "I just want the pain to end."

See, what they don't tell you when you sign up for this is that salvation is free but sanctification costs your life. They don't tell you that you have to change your words from "Why me?" to "Count it all joy." They don't put a disclaimer saying that the walk is free but the path is narrow. They don't tell you that you are a house.

A house can have broken parts but still be used. You can be broken and still be used by God. Because God isn't looking for perfect he's looking for posture. He's looking for an open house not foreclosed one. When something is broken within your house, you call someone with that specific training in that area. The very thing that you think qualifies you as broken can be the same that qualifies you as a healer! You looked at your situation as a test but God is trying to use you as a tool.

You don't call a plumber to fix a light. You don't call a perfect person to help an addict. You want someone who doesn't look down on you but says, "I can help, I know because I've been there and I know the pain, I know how you feel. Let's tackle this together." It's okay to be a broken house, a shattered temple — I have some creaks and leaks, too. God wants to restore you because the scariest place for the enemy is the transformation from broken to healed. Why? Because then you'll start setting others free. People don't care what you say, they care about what you do.

What you thought counted you out, God is counting on to help someone for their breakthrough.

They overcame by the blood of the Lamb and the word of their testimony. Let your house be open for not only God, but others. You may see yourself as a broken mirror, but others see a reflection. Your life is a testimony of not shame or embarrassment but of strength and grace. Your house may be missing things — a father, joy gone, love absent, peace may be missing — but God doesn't intend to keep you in lack, he is all-sufficient.

But he needed to withhold things from your house because one, you needed to know who really supplied it, and two, so you can show others how you overcame. But he is faithful He will fill those broken places and mend the broken hearts. He will be the light in your house. So that you may project your light to the world.

You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill can not be hidden. Neither a man lights a lamp and put it under a bushel, but on the stand — and it shines unto all that are in the house. Even so, let your light shine before men; they may see your good works and Glorify your Father who is in heaven.

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