Even When You Don't Understand All You Need To Do Is Trust

Even When You Don't Understand All You Need To Do Is Trust

All I could think was "something's going to happen." And even in the doubt, I just went… I trusted.


Two years ago I had a really beautiful, tearful, yet closeness experience with the Lord.

In this season of my life, I was struggling with trusting the plan God had for me. I struggled to really get this huge grudge off my heart. To try to find rest and shake this feeling that overpowered me. I struggled to accept, and at times I still find myself with this issue, and I didn't trust. But then it all began with a thought…a trust to go.

Mass started at noon, and I usually never go to daily mass. I usually go every Sunday. But at 11:50 a.m. I got a feeling to get in my car and go to church. All I could think was "something's going to happen." However, I also had the thought of "no don't go, stay home and finish what you need to do because if you go you won't get what you need to get done." But I went… I trusted.

As I rush with 10 minutes to throw something on for mass I left just repeating "Jesus help me understand why I'm doing this." I said this the whole ride there. As I arrived I sat in the first pew and proceeded to listen to God's word and really open my heart, also trying to find a million ways to shake this doubt off.

As mass ended I still didn't understand. All of a sudden one of the parishioners stated how the rosary was going to be said after. Now, I'm going to be honest with you all, I don't pray the rosary and I should.

So, as I proceed to leave I got the feeling to stay. So I did and I took out my red rosary and kneeled down.

As we begin the parishioner states "this is for the people who are doubting, who needs Jesus to show them that he is the way and that his plan is beautiful, and for our own intentions" and I literally looked up at the cross and tears came flowing like a river down my face. During the rosary I got chills up and down, they wouldn't stop at all. Every Hail Mary and Glory Be I said I cried harder.

During the third joyful mystery, I got a huge overflow of peace, love, and that feeling of everything will be okay. I smiled so big, and it felt like I was new, and it was like I never shed a tear.

As I left I knew that this was the "something will happen." That was him telling me what he wanted me to do & that his plan was something I needed to realize what he CAN do. With him, beauty happens and your mind understands in a way he can only make you understand.

After I left I gave myself a little pep talk in the church parking lot. But, it wasn't your usual pep talk you give to yourself. The words were so deep that I knew it wasn't me saying it to myself. The words that were coming out of my mouth so lovingly, so perfect, so delicate, and each word flowed to the next I can't even wrap my head around it.

"Trust in me, don't doubt. I know it's hard to trust because of all the people who let you down and will on this Earth, and it's hard to trust in the plan you are walking through. But know that I will never leave you, I will never let go of your hand, and I have a great plan for you more than you will ever know. I know what's best for you. I am Kings above all Kings, I am the one who created you so you can have new life. I am the one who put you through it all so you can transform into the person you are today. You are special to me, you are my child… my precious child. I love you more than you'll ever know, I won't let anything happen to you so stop doubting, trust. Without me your life will not be filled with my abundant joy and presence. You're making me proud always remember that. And know that one day it'll all make sense. Just trust in me."

From Jesus to me, and now to you always know to trust in him because the plans he has for you is something so uniquely designed for you.

"Fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you."


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12 Bible Verses For Faith In Hard Times

Remind yourself that God is always with you.

Lately, I have felt lost at what God wants for my life. Ever since I've come back to UWG everything has been horrible. It seems that I can't catch a break. I'm trying my best to focus on school, work, and extracurricular activities. But it's hard when I'm having issues with my apartment/roommates and knowing my family back home is struggling and needs many prayers. All, I keep thinking is maybe Carrollton isn't where I belong anymore. I've asked God if He can guide me in the right direction. Below, I have found Bible verses that have helped get me through these rough, past couple of weeks.

1. Isaiah 43:2

"When you go through deep waters, I will be with you."

2. Psalm 37:5

"Commit your way to the Lord. Trust in Him, and He will act."

3. Romans 8:18

"The pain that you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that's coming."

4. Proverbs 31:25

"She is clothed in strength, and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future."

5. Joshua 1:9

"Be bold. Be brave. Be courageous."

6. Ecclesiastes 3:1

"There is a time for everything and a reason for every activity under the heavens."

7. Isaiah 41:10

"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand."

8. Isaiah 66:9

"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born, says the Lord."

9. Psalm 91:4

"He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings, you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart."

10. Psalm 62:1-2

"My soul finds rest in God alone, my salvation comes from Him, He alone is my rock and my salvation."

11. Philippians 4:13

"I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength."

12. Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

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Find Your Identity In God, Not Guys

You don't need a guy to define your life, or anyone for that matter!


As a student here at Texas A&M;, I sometimes feel like I'm more observant than I should be of other people and their situations. One of the common things I notice is girls going crazy over guys. I understand the occasional crush (or even fling for that matter), but this is different. I watch girl after girl go through guy after guy, seeking attention and love and affection, most of the times through sexual means, and it never works out in the end.

As a person who has been single for the entirety of her life, I've never really understood the need for a boyfriend. Sure, I would like one, but I don't need one to survive. But a lot of other people seem to need a boyfriend to get out of bed each morning. It breaks my heart. However, there is someone I know who can offer you everything you're looking for in a boyfriend, who won't break your heart. Ever. Are you interested??

Good. His name is Jesus. Here's why you should be chasing Him, not guys!

He will always love you.

Our most natural human desire is the desire to be loved. We seek love from our parents, our friends, even people we don't know. We crave attention and affection. The urge to seek love is also normal. We are structured to search for love. However, a lot of people get confused and search for love in all the wrong places. They seek love through men, money, sex, drugs, alcohol, you name it. I have watched girls go home with a different guy, every night, just so she feels like she's cared for. For even just a little while.

But what if I told you there was a guy who would always love you? Someone who will never leave you, or hurt you? Someone who can be your hero. His name is Jesus.

Now I know you may be thinking that I'm crazy and that there is no proof of His love for you. Jesus actually wrote us a love letter, the Bible, which was scribed through a few chosen people who could tell His love for you. We all love a good love letter, especially long ones. Here are some examples of God's love for you:

"I have loved you with an everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness." - Jeremiah 31:3

"Cast all your anxiety on Him who cares for you." - 1 Peter 5:7

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because He first loved us." - 1 John 4:18-19

He will always be with you.

We all long for a boyfriend who always wants to be with us. We want to be around them all the time, and do everything with them!! We crave and long for that attention, where someone wants to spend lengths of time with us. I don't know why, but it's meaningful. But oftentimes, we find ourselves in dead-end relationships where we're the main source of holding everything together, planning every outing, and continually being the one who asks to hang out.

It comes across as desperate, and most guys don't like it. Men have an innate need to chase girls. They want to be the one to seek you out and to ask you out. Sometimes they need a little hint, but if you're the only one who's ever initiating, he probably isn't that interested. However, Jesus doesn't care how often you call. He doesn't care how much time you spend with him, the more the better! Jesus loves being with you! Here are some examples of Him never leaving your side:

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." - Joshua 1:9

"And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age." - Matthew 28:20

"Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will never leave you or forsake you." - Deuteronomy 31:6

He will never forsake you.

What does forsake really even mean anyway? God uses this word a lot in the Bible, but do you really know what it means? The best definition for the word is abandon. How many of you have been abandoned by a boy? Cheated on? Ghosted by? Left behind? I certainly have. I can tell you, first hand, that it's one of the worst feelings in the world. I've dealt with all three, up close and personal. And it hurts. There is nothing wrong with being hurt over what has happened to you. But then I realized I had a God who loved me 10 million times more. A God who promises me that He will never leave me, cheat on me, ghost me, leave me behind. No, He remains steadfast. Here are some examples of God remaining true to you:

"It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed." - Deuteronomy 31:8

"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Behold, all who are incensed against you shall be put to shame and confounded; those who strive against you shall be as nothing and shall perish. You shall seek those who contend with you, but you shall not find them; those who war against you shall be as nothing at all. For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, "Fear not, I am the one who helps you." - Isaiah 41:10

"Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you, I will give people in exchange for you, nations in exchange for your life. Do not be afraid, for I am with you." - Isaiah 43:4-5

He will protect you, strengthen you, and build you.

In a relationship, the man is usually the protector. We as girls long for someone to fortify us, and protect us from harm. We also yearn for someone who will make us stronger (hopefully in faith), and someone who builds us up to feel better about who we are as individuals. Some of these traits can go both ways, where the girl can also build up the boy, where iron sharpens iron. However, often times, we can get torn down by a significant other, where they are passive, and don't take the time to care about us, or they are abusive, where they purposely hurt you to make you feel lesser about yourself.

In either situation, we tend to make excuses for our significant other, such as "Oh he'll take me out someday" or "The abuse isn't that bad". Stop. Stop making excuses. Start making changes. Trust in Jesus who loves you more than anyone else in the whole wide world. Here are some examples of Jesus and how He protects you and builds you:

"But you, Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness." - Psalm 86:15

"But the Lord stood with me and strengthened me, so that the message might be preached fully through me, and that all the Gentiles might hear. Also, I was delivered out of the mouth of the lion. And the Lord will deliver me from every evil work and preserve me for His heavenly kingdom. To Him be glory forever and ever. Amen!" - 2 Timothy 4:17-18

"Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name." Psalm 91:14

So, instead of chasing after boys, chase after God, who loves you more than anyone else could. He's the best you could ever have.



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