My plan was to graduate high school and go to college.

My plan was to easily make college friends and easily make decent grades.

My plan was to graduate and move to a new city and start a new career in what I obtained my degree in.

My plan was to be married by the time I was in my mid to later '20s.

My plan was to have children soon after.

My plan was to own a big house decorated as if I was under the influence of Joanna Gaines.

My plan was to be a success and be proud to tell others my picture perfect life.

However, there was a problem with my plan… it had the word “my” in front of it.

I’ve spent most of my young life knowing how I wanted it to turn out and planned in extreme advance for what was supposed to happen, along with the time frame I wanted. It’s much easier to trust myself because I know I won’t let myself down when the truth is, I, as a sinner, let myself down every single day. I let myself down every single day because I am not enough and I never will be.

I was raised knowing God has an in-depth plan for my life, but I find myself treating Him as my backup quarterback a lot. I usually have my plan laid out and it’s a good one too. It makes sense, it’s easy, it benefits me in the ways I want it to, it's reliant, and it's mine.

Don’t get me wrong, I am completely aware God has His plan over on the sideline and it’s there if I need it. Yet, for some reason, our human inadequate minds usually choose the direction of the sinner (us) over the defeater of sin (Jesus).

“You can make many plans, but the LORD's purpose will prevail.” – Proverbs 19:21

God takes, what is in our eyes, a perfectly sufficient plan and wrecks them before they wreck us. A lot of the times what seems so great on the outside isn’t as great in the inside and it works the same way with our plans. The uncomplicated plan I stated above was my plan for years. “It’s set, it’s comfortable so why won’t the plan work?” I would ask God this over and over to which He would say to me, “it’s not mine.”

God’s plans are tougher, strung out to what seems like forever sometimes, confusing, faith testing, and more successful than my plan could ever have been.

Even if it means I have accomplished none of the things I wanted to in life, if my faith is made stronger, it was worth it. It is worth so much more than good grades. It is worth so much more than how much money I can make in a year, and so much more than some lame success story to tell your family and friends.

I, along with my plans, am not enough and I never will be enough. But, out of simple love, Christ and His plans are enough for me.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” – Proverbs 3:5-6

Our understanding is useless, and it is a tactic used by satin to encourage us to stray from our Lord. Focusing on Jesus and letting Him be the guide of your life is the first step towards fulfilling His plans for your life. It is then we leave our old ways of trusting ourselves to experience walking into unknown paths one step behind Christ. God’s plans seem crazy and at times can be very questionable, it is at that time doubt begins to creep in and threatens to take over which is why prayer throughout your journey of life is absolutely essential.

God’s role is to create the plan and play everything out according to whatever His purpose is. Our role is simple and it is to follow Him.