I'm being honest. I've been staring at this screen trying to come up with what to write about for approximately an hour. A very productive hour. I kept getting distracted by all the other things I had going on. The hour I was supposed to spend writing this article sort of turned into making a huge to-do list of all the things that couldn't really be done at one in the morning. For example, call my parents about housing, email my bosses about my job plans for the summer, plan a meeting for my sorority committee, respond to the long chain of emails I've ignored today from my YoungLife team, the list goes on.

As I sat there, realizing how much I had to do, I was struck by how much I don't have my life together at all. Like, not even a little bit. Before I knew it, I was sitting in my living room literally having a mental breakdown because I was not nearly as on top of things as I needed to be.

I felt like all my friends knew exactly what they were doing for the summer, had housing plans set for the next 35 years, and had finished all their homework for the next four weeks, while I was chilling with three-day unshowered hair, mismatched socks and my bag of almonds for dinner. I felt as though falling through the cracks.

So often we feel like we're supposed to have it all. We're supposed to be the ones posting the Facebook status that we're "so excited to announce" that we'll be interning somewhere cool and prestigious. We're supposed to make time to eat meals that aren't a bag of carrots at 2 a.m. We're supposed to know exactly what we want to do once we graduate. But, to be honest, I kind of think it's all bullshit.

Maybe if we stopped comparing ourselves to one another or to the impossible standard society has set for us, we'd realize that everyone is just kind of faking it till they make it. Yes, even that kid from your high school who scored a 36 on his ACT and currently interns with Facebook.

It kind of reminds me of when you're little and you would look at your older cousins, or siblings, or family friends and think to yourself 'wow, when I'm 16 I'm going to be so cool.' But then you turn 16 and you realize you're still just dilly dallying around with no clue how to even drive a car let alone "be cool." Maybe we never really stop doing that. We always think that once we reach next week, next month, next year, then we'll have our lives together. But every time we get there, we realize we're no closer to having it all together than when we started.

The thing about life is, there's never a clear flashing sign for when your life will miraculously match the image in your head. Very rarely will you ever reach an age where you think to yourself, 'yep, I've got everything in order now.' So, maybe we should just try to focus on how much we actually do have our lives together versus how much we don't.

Will I still have the freak out moments where I stress about how much I have to do? Probably. But at least, I can do so with a kind of relief that somewhere, someone else is freaking out too and that we're sort of in this together.