Before I start, I fully and completely understand that there are people who have it worse than I do in this current moment in time. I am also hear to tell you that no matter what your situation is, no matter how much or how little you have lost during this time that your feelings are valid and you are allowed to grieve. I feel like I am grieving so many little things right now that I can't keep everything straight.
I miss my friends. I want to go to my niece and nephew's birthday parties. I was supposed to go to a concert earlier this month. I miss going to church in person, and even more so I am sad that the Easter service is no longer happening in-person. I want to go back to work
I don't think I have ever wanted to go back to work as bad as I do right now. I miss my co-workers and I miss my kids. I'm sad that I do not get to see them five days a week anymore, and I do not get to see them at least until April 30th, and that depends on what the current situation is at that moment in time.
I did not get to celebrate some of my favorite little's birthdays because parties were unable to happen due to the virus wanting to keep everybody safe. Which, I understand and am fully supportive of, but I hate that those things did not get to happen. I get to grieve that.
Anyone who is attending church knows that since in-person services aren't happening for at least a month, knows that Easter services are going to be online as well. Which, is ultimately the best call and in the best interest of keeping everybody safe and healthy. But I am going to miss in-person Easter. Easter is probably one of my most looked forward to services of the year, and the fact that it has to happen online devastates me while I still understand that it has to be this way. I just really miss my people and can't wait to finally get back together with them and hug every single one of them.
I could go on and on about the amount of things I have lost during this time, but it feels like the list would be never-ending. So, I'll leave this here with you: It is okay to grieve the things that are cancelled. You're feelings are valid. Yes, someone out there has it worse, but you are allowed to grieve that loss. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise.
