My circle is small, and that's okay.
Actually, my circle is so small it isn't even a circle. I can count how many honest, true friends that I have on one hand. And the sad thing is I can't even hangout with them all at once because they all aren't friends. I have some friends that I can hangout with all the time, and I have some friends that are there when I need them to be, or when they need me.
Going into college I was so excited to meet new people that I didn't think about how to meet new people. I didn't expand who I was talking to outside of my roommate, and I didn't even try to talk to people on my floor. In November I was forced to move out of my room because my roommate was insanely hard to get along with, and I found myself once again stuck without any friends, even shitty ones. My new roommate was significantly like me, and it took some time before we became good friends, but eventually we did. And her best friend became one of my good friends.
I was also seeing some people that I went to high school with every now and again. A couple of them were younger than me, and one of them I graduated with. Those are the friends that I don't always see, but I know they are there for me if I need them.
I also tried joining a sorority, and contrary to popular belief, it is not for everyone. The girls were very fake nice to me. By that I mean they were never outright mean to me, but they didn't genuinely care about me like they all promised during recruitment. I don't know if maybe I just joined the wrong one, but being in the sorority for a whole semester I didn't even make one friend that is still around.
I'm hoping to make more friends since I'll be spending all my time between two buildings this semester, but I'm not worried about it in any way. Having four quarters is better than having 100 pennies, because at least that way they are all genuine, real friends. I was never the popular girl, I never compromised my beliefs for friendship, and at least this way I know that the friends I have are real friends.
My circle is small, and that's okay. Actually, it's even better than okay.


















