Dear Mom and Dad,
I want to start this off by saying that I love you and thank you for everything you've done for me. I understand I may not be the easiest person to deal with at times, but you never gave up on me and loved me anyway. Through all the ups and downs you've always been there and I couldn't thank you enough. You've taught me and shaped me into the person I'm proud to be today.
Ever since I was a kid you've taught me to get back up no matter how many times I fall or how much it hurts. That applies both physically and mentally. Whether I would fall off my bike or I would do bad on a test you were there encouraging me to get up and do better next time.
You taught me that no matter how well I do, I should always strive for a little higher each time. If I would do a piece of artwork or makeup I was proud of you would always encourage me to try a harder one next time. Since you did that I've grown so much as an artist and I couldn't thank you enough.
I've always wondered why you were more strict on me on grades and work than my brother and I think I understand now. I never thought of it this way but it's not because he's your favorite or anything, but rather because you see something in me and you don't want me to lose this spark and just give up. For the longest time I thought there was something I did or if you just didn't love me as much, but now that I'm older I think I understand. Thank you for never letting my grades slip or letting me lose this spark of passion for makeup that I have. With enough effort and practice I hope this spark will turn into a burning fire and I won't be stopped. Thank you for feeding this fire.
I know I've been through some rough patches and I thought I wouldn't make it this far in life, but thank you for showing me love and helping me get better. Thank you for not just fixing the problem to get it over with but instead encouraging me to want to get better and fix myself. However, I will always be a work in progress. They are rare now, but I have anxiety attacks and they're terrifying. Most aren't dramatic like the other night in the bathroom but they do happen. It might be as little as just silence and tapping my finger tips together. All I ask is that you understand and are patient. I don't know why it happens I just have irrational fears about certain things and although I know they won't happen they still scare me, some to the point of an attack.
I'm trying my best to be a good daughter and make you proud. That's honestly all I want. I just want you to be proud of me. I'm sorry if I don't do something when you tell me to. I'm sorry if I don't do a good enough job. I'm sorry when I forget to do something because I got distracted. I'm trying my best and sometimes I'm just out of it, especially if I've had a long day at work. I'm sorry for all the times I've just been in a bad mood and snapped. It's not your fault. I was just in a bad mood and you were right there so it just came out towards you and I'm sorry for that. Just remember I love you and I always will.
With love,
Your daughter
