I miss how things used to be.

I miss those summer days where we spent an inexcusable amount of hours sitting in the sun and laughing at dumb jokes. I miss walking around town, talking till the sun went down and the moon came up. I miss spending embarrassing amounts of money on food that made every part of us except our stomachs happy.

I miss being able to live life without a care in the world. I miss the times where I could be the truest version of myself, absent of all the anxieties and worries that run through my mind nowadays. I miss the times when hanging out was as simple as ringing a friend's doorbell and asking if they were home.

I miss the days where I didn't have to write research paper after research paper. I miss the days where all I worried about was whether or not my parents were going to let me go out and play baseball with my friends. I miss the days where I felt like all my friendships were solid, and "talking shit" wasn't a part of our vocabulary. I miss the movie nights and Sundays spent playing basketball at the park till the sun went down.

I just miss the unconditional happiness. The absence of all anxieties and worries. The lack of sadness and misery. The presence of exuberant joy and motivation. I miss being able to live my life without a care in the world.

I miss how things used to be. But maybe, on some other day, near or far, life will be like this again. We will be back to how things used to be.