Why I Miss Freshman Year Of High School

Why I Miss Freshman Year Of High School

Freshman year was one of the best years of my life, and I'll always want to go back to the first day.

I still remember the first time I actually started thinking about high school, which was two years before my first day as a freshman. I got that nervous feeling I get whenever I realize something important hasn't crossed my mind before like it should have. Back then, I had the power to reassure myself that it would be a long time until I had to face high school head-on, so I had all the time in the world to relax and still be a child. A year passed, and eighth grade was flying by quicker than I could catch up with it. Sooner than I could tell, January was just around the corner.

By then, the small, nervous ache I felt was beginning to grow as my worry started to increase with each passing day. I was just a small girl who wasn't ready to go to the same school as students who could drive, vote and almost become adults. I felt like the small fish in the big pond that I was about to call my new school. The problem was that the only "high school scenario" that I could imagine was one from a cliche movie where the freshmen had to spend every day on guard. My biased opinion against high school had no proper evidence to support it, but I couldn't bring myself to change how I felt about it. I had grown so used to thinking that high school was a place of nightmares that it was impossible for me to picture it any other way.

The summer before freshman year arrived in the blink of an eye, and I found myself at Target looking for new school supplies. How would my first day go? Can I manage the school work? What's the worst-case scenario that could happen? All that ran through my head were those thoughts along with a few others, and now I regret spending so much time thinking of what could go wrong rather than what would actually happen.

I met some upperclassmen over the summer for the first time at a workshop for school, and even today, they are some of the best people I have ever met. I became really close to three of them, and when I felt overwhelmed with schoolwork and told them about it, they'd always be there by my side. One of them was a senior, and one thing I'd tell any freshman is to never become friends with a senior because it breaks your heart when they leave for college. Making these new friends caused me move out of my usual comfort zone, but I will never regret sitting down and talking to them that first day of workshop.

I don't know why, but I don't remember much about my first day of freshman year. Maybe it just wasn't memorable enough to be remembered in full detail. Freshman year only appears as a blur for me with a few good memories because I had so much fun throughout my journey. I'll never forget my first-period class with one of the best teachers and classmates I've ever had, and I'll always remember how my math teacher helped me realize my full potential as a student. The last month of ninth grade was painful, because I'd had one of the best years of my life; seeing it all go away would feel like a slap in the face would remind me that this was all temporary.

Maybe that's a part of growing up. Nothing lasts forever, and being an adult is learning to adapt to the changes that come with moving on. I still can't believe that sophomore year has already started; I just want to take a time machine and go back to the first day of school so I can relive all of the wonderful memories. The only thing I regret is spending so much time worrying about my first year of high school because I could've spent that time thinking about how much fun it could be. Time flies by so quickly, so what I've learned more than anything else this past year and a half is to make sure that you make the most of the good times while you can.

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22 New Things That I Want To Try Now That I'm 22

A bucket list for my 22nd year.


"I don't know about you but I'm feelin' 22," I have waited 6 long years to sing that and actually be 22! Now 22 doesn't seem like a big deal to people because you can't do anything that you couldn't do before and you're still super young. But I'm determined to make my 22nd year a year filled with new adventures and new experiences. So here's to 22.

1. Go sky diving.

What's crazier than jumping out of a plane? (Although I'll probably try indoor skydiving first.)

2. Go cliff jumping/diving.

I must be the only Rhode Islander who hasn't gone to Jamestown and jumped off a cliff.

3. Ride in a hot air balloon.

Up, up and away.

4. Try out skiing.

Cash me in the next Olympics, how bout dat.

5. Try out snow boarding.

Shawn White, I'm coming for you.

6. Go bungee jumping.

Because at least this time I'll be attached to something.

7. Go to Portugal.

I mean I'm Portuguese so I have to go at some point, right?

8. Go to Cape Verde.

Once again, I'm Cape Verdean so I have to go.

9. Vist one of the seven wonders of the world.

I mean hey, Egypt's on, my bucket list.

10. Try out surfing.

It's only natural that somebody from the Ocean State knows how to surf.

11. Learn a new langauge.

Because my little bit of Portuguese, Spanish and Latin isn't cutting it anymore.

12. Travel to a state that I've never been to before.

Fun fact: I've only been to 17 of the 50 states.

13. Go paddle boarding.

Pretty boring but I've never done it.

14. Go scuba diving.

I'm from the Ocean State so I guess I should see the ocean up close and personal.

15. Learn how to line dance.

There's actually a barn in my state that does line dancing, so this one will definitely get crossed off.

16. Go kayaking.

All this water around me and I haven't done a lot of the water activites.

17. Stay the night in a haunted hotel room.

I bet if I got my friends to come with me, it would be like the Suite Life of Zach and Cody episode, minus the ghost coming out of the wall but you never know.

18. Get my palms read.

Because who doesn't want to know their future.

19. Go to a medium.

Like a medium that can communicate with people that have died.

20. Take a helicopter ride.

Air plane: check Helicopter:....

21. Sleep under the stars.

Because sleeping in a tent is more like glamping than camping

22. Just to try new things in my everyday life.

Whether it's trying a new restaurant, getting something different at my usual restaurants, changing my usual style, going on the scary rides at amusement parks, and bringing things I used to do back into my life now.

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I ditched My Former Situation-ship and here's Why You Should As well

Actions don't always speak louder than words.


It is not only common to hear how many people have been friendzoned, but it is even sadder that so many have stayed waiting for such a stagnant thing to become more.

Situationships are becoming more common nowadays, especially among young adults. For those who don't know what that is, basically is having a one-sided treatment similar to that of an amorous relationship but without the title.

I've been in a situation-ship before when I was in high school and let me tell you it was my best and worst teacher. Seeing other people where I was at one point, makes me want to shake them (okay not literally) but knock some sense into them.

If you're currently in a situation-ship, let me tell you that it is time to let go. Whether you have known them forever or not, anyone who does not value you as a person doesn't care for your feelings or time.

Clearly, you are wasting your time and energy with someone who is not reciprocating the same feelings back.

The one who is meant to be with you will not make you question where you stand. They will let you know how much they adore you and how much you mean to them.

They will show you off to the world, kiss you like they mean it, and will be straightforward.

The worst thing I had to learn when I was infatuated with someone was that they told me they didn't know what they wanted yet at the same time demonstrated affection.

And I really did take that saying "actions speak louder than words" too literally. Can you blame me?

Whoever wants to be with you will make every effort to be with you no matter what. The idea of somebody leaving you wanting more and not making it official can really break you emotionally.

But I tell you, it's time to ditch your situation-ship. Honestly, sometimes there are individuals out there who can't stand the idea of being with someone who is just more than them.

I'm not saying there are people who are better than others, but sometimes we are the ones who have our sh*t together while they don't and to them, that is intimidating.

Or maybe we don't want to give away certain things that come with relationships. Um, like sex.

The best things come when we least expect them. Learn to realize what it is that you deserve because obviously, your emotions aren't toys for some random person to be playing with them.

You are worthy of someone who sets your heart on fire, not someone who puts out your flame. Don't let anyone make you believe that love isn't a good feeling, it is and more.

There are billions of people out there, don't let one ruin your chance of finding your true love.

Part of loving yourself is letting go of those who use you for their benefit.

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