It’s currently midterms week. A pregame for the end of the semester finals. My very first week of intense scholarly college stress. Frankly, I don’t feel six feet under yet. Maybe it’s because I’m not a pre-med student having to worry about chemistry and biology but I still feel the stress. I think all my future doctors’ stress is rubbing onto me. Is stress contagious?
I’ve already had my fair share of breakdowns. They come at the most random of times too which makes it all the better! I love just sitting in my English class just listening about our next paper and just out of the blue feel tears slowly drip from my eyes. Classic.
But I’m learning how to cope with the roller coaster of emotions mixed with the educational pressure to excel.
Food and sleep have been my best friends in preparation for dead week. I don’t know if it’s because it’s February but I’ve consumed the most amount of chocolates I’ve ever had in my life and the sweetness definitely soothes the bitterness of real life. When there’s free time and I can catch a couple extra z’s, my body thanks me for choosing rest. Although I miss the uncanny summer like weather we’ve had recently, shout out to the snow for giving a delay for one day so I could get extra hours of sleep.
I think the most important thing that is keeping me going this week, is surrounding myself with a strong support group. Knowing I can call home for a pick me up, gets me excited to know I see family soon for break. Sticking close with school friends who are as motivated to study and do well in school encourages me to focus on my studies and make sure I’m doing all I can to get the better grade. Having those friends to choose to stay in to have a chill night to unwind and then go back to study keeps me grounded but also keeps my happiness at bay. Library dates are the best kind of dates.
But despite everything, one of my advisors told us this last week, we should do all we can to do our best but if it turns out we don’t do as well as we hope, it’s not the end of the world. We are worth more than any score.
