Don’t get me wrong. "Me Before You" was an amazing move, so amazing that I bought the book the very same night I watched it. However, anyone who has read the book or seen the movie knows that it is a heartbreaker. It makes you smile and laugh, only to crush all that bubbling emotion you felt building up throughout the course of reading or watching it. It had me crying while watching it and then returning home just to cry more.

I have seen sadder movies. "Marley and Me" makes me cry just thinking about it. "The Notebook" will still always be the greatest love story of all time. And don’t even get me started on "A Walk to Remember," "Dead Poet’s Society," or "The Last Song." "But Me Before You" was different. "Me Before You" hit me in a way that no movie ever has because there was a moment looking at Lou (played by the beautiful Emilia Clarke, the First of Her Name, Queen of Meereen, Queen of the Andals and the Rhoynar and the First Men, Lord of the Seven Kingdoms, Protector of the Realm, Khaleesi of the Great Grass Sea, the Unburnt, Mother of Dragons) on the screen, I realized I was looking at myself.

Don’t get me wrong, I have no idea what it is like to care for a quadriplegic. I don’t know what it is like to lose someone to suicide, physician assisted or otherwise. What I do know is what it is like to be the girl who gives everything to help others only to have her heart broken.

Let me break it down for those who have not seen the movie. Lou wanted to quit her job the day she started. Will was miserable for her to be around but she stayed because her family needed the money that the job provided. She stuck through the misery to help those who needed her. At some point it became more than just a job though. She grew to care about Will. When she learned of his plans she became determined to change his mind losing her own relationship with Patrick.

The moment that it really hit me, though, was the moment Will told Lou that he was still going through with his plans after the. She told him she hated him, that she wished she had never met him. I’ve been there. I’ve been standing there, looking at someone who you care about more than anything in the world who has just shattered your heart. I know what it is like to be the girl who gives up everything to help someone, to try to change someone, only to have them destroy you. I know what it is like for someone to crush your heart after you were there for them through so many trials and tests, when no one else was. I know the feeling of looking someone you love in the eyes and feeling so much pain that you wish it would all disappear; that you could go back in time and never cross their path to begin with. I know what it is like to be the girl who gives everything to everyone, only to come up with nothing myself.

After all of that heartbreak, and all of the pain, Lou goes back to Will anyway. She stands by him even when it tears her apart inside. That is the true tragic downfall. No matter how much someone has hurt you, you go back to them anyway because you care about them, even if you know it will just cause more pain.

"Me Before You," for a brief moment, made me lose all hope. It made me think that if even movie characters can’t win, then how can I? Sitting in that theater crying, for a moment I thought it was hopeless. Why put your heart out there and try to help people when it will just leave you broken? What is the point?

Then I remembered who I am and what the world is really like. There is good in the world, good people, good places, good things, good food. However, despite all of the good there is also a lot of bad. Turn on the news and you will see it. Everyone focuses on the bad. So many people are angry, damaged, hurting, lost, confused. There is too much bad in the world and too often people focus on it and forget the good. I don’t want to be one of those people. I want to be the one that cherishes the good, that always looks for the silver lining in every situation. I want to be the one to bring joy and hope and love into the lives of those around me. I would rather be the one hurt than to see those I care about hurting. All of the pain that comes out of caring and loving the way that I do is worth it if I can help a single person.

So here is my message to all the people like me, who love and give without end. Keep loving. Keep giving. Keep hurting. Keep trusting and caring and being good. The world needs more good.

P.S. I still don't know if I will ever be able to watch "Me Before You" again, but maybe one day I will try.