I'll never forget where I was when I heard that you were gone. I was in my first-grade classroom and my teacher got called out of the room and came running back in, asking if I was ok, but I no idea what she was talking about. When I was leaving school that day, both of my parents picked me up, which never happened so I knew something was going on but wasn't sure what. When I got home, my parents sat me down and told me that you died. All of a sudden, everything from that day made perfect sense. I was too young at the time to understand what was really going on. All I knew was that I missed you because you were all I knew. Now I miss you more than I did then because I long and wish for you to be here for this season of my life.
I can't help but feel selfish and wish that you were still here. I wonder what our relationship would be like. Would you cook me dinner all the time? Would we have a close relationship? Would I be at your house more than mine? How different would thanksgivings and Christmas' be? Would you be at all of my school events, such as choir concerts, football games, graduations? What would you think about my career? Would you be proud of me? So many questions flood into my mind when I think about how different my life would be like if you were still here.
I know you're living your life worshipping at the feet of Jesus, and Earth is just a passing thought, but I so badly wish I could talk to you one more time and fill you in on what's happened the past few years. I want to hug you and just lay around on the couch with you just one more time. I want to go grocery shopping with you and eat dinner with you just one more time. I wish you were here for all of it.
I hope you and PawPaw are watching down on all of us and feeling proud of the legacy you've left behind. Everyone here misses both of you, and while I wish you were here, I would never ask you to come back because I know you're the happiest you've ever been. Hug PawPaw for me, and I'll see you soon. I love you more than you'll ever know.
Miss you forever,