Becoming vulnerable is something that I feel every individual has a battle with. In society, men are taught that they must bottle up their emotions and just learn to deal with these emotions on our own. I am here to say that I hate becoming vulnerable and dealing with my emotions. Dealing with emotions is something that can not be taught in high school, college, or even by our parents. I am here to state, I am done sticking by this rule that society has created for us "Men".

I am finding out who I am every day and I am okay with that. Recently, I have had so much change in my life within the past year. I started college and realize that I did not like the person who I was in high school. I was dealing with depression and anxiety within my freshmen year of college and I did not know how to cope with it. I thought that it would get better and the thing was that it never did. I even tried to take my life this past summer and it took me hitting rock bottom to realize that I am worth so much more than a dash on a grave. This dash would be all that I would be remember by. I would be the kid who committed suicide the summer of his sophomore year. I am through dwelling in my own pity and changing this by doing what makes me happy.

I am through living by rules that I feel almost broke me. Living up to everyone's expectations is hard when I can not live up to my own.I am through wasting time on people who I feel that I can change and make them into a better person. All of this energy I am spending on these people, I am now putting towards myself and loving myself more and more every day.

Loving yourself is one of the hardest things that any individual can do. We are always taught to give and give but are never taught to say that I can not give you anything today. When we were kids, we would fall and scrape our knees, everyone would run to us and tell us not to cry and we did not. Sometimes crying because life is so miserable is acceptable. It is acceptable but do not dwell on it because it can steal you of your joy.

I might be the scar from certain events in my life. From cancer all the way to suicide, I have beaten the odds when it comes to escaping death. I am done loving others who can not even love themselves and I am now focusing on loving myself more and more every day.

Recently, artist Maggie Rose released a song called 'Love Me More". This song is a reminder that we can get through anything and that we need to do this for ourselves and not for anyone else. So stay strong my readers. Do not let this world or society break you! We need to stop doing things for everyone else and do it for ourselves. At the end of the day, I plan on to continue to love myself more and more every day.