"Self Love Is A Joke Sometimes"

"Self Love Is A Joke Sometimes"

A slam poem
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Recently, I have begun sharing my slam poetry with the world and thus, here we are! Today, I will be sharing a poem with y'all called "Self Love is a Joke Sometimes."


Sometimes, on my best days,

I forget that loving myself is important.

That food, water, and self-care are in the same category.

That if I had to give up one, I'd forget it even existed.

Maybe I already have.

I can't remember the last time I held myself

Or when I took a nap because sleeping at night

Has become a game I play with my bed

Called "8 hours or 8 seconds."

I hate myself on the worst days but

I accept that I said days, not months or decades.

Pain has to heal because if it didn't there would

Be no reason, no reason, for the word healing.

I am NOT just a chemical imbalance, I can't be

Just carbon and bad timing because

God decided I was better as a person than a dirt pile.

Self-love and survival aren't just blood in the same vein,

They are the vein.

And I am the body of a girl who must get an IV to know

Where that self-love is located.

But maybe today, I become a doctor and slice open

My veins and see where the love lies because I fear

It is no longer in my heart.

I will spend time researching my case and maybe I will discover

Some cure for when my brain can't love me back.

Cover Image Credit: Rachel Blauert

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My entire life has been a juggling match between my weight and the world. Since I was a young girl every single doctor my family took me to, told me I needed to lose weight. The searing pain of those words still stabs me in the side to this day. I have walked past stores like Hollister and American Eagle since I was 13.

Being plus-size means watching girls the same age as you or older walk into a store that sells the cutest, in style clothing and you having to walk into a store that sells clothes that are very out of style for a young girl. Being plus-size means being picked last in gym class, even if you love sports.

Being plus-size means feeling like you have to suck it in in pictures so you don't look as big next to your friends. Being plus-size means constantly thinking people are staring at you, even if they aren't.

The number on the scale haunts me. Every single time I think about the number I cringe.

Can I just say how going shopping is an absolute nightmare? If you haven't noticed, in almost every store (that even has plus sizes to begin with) plus-size clothing is closed off and secluded from the rest of the store. For example, Forever 21, There are walls around every side of the plus "department."

Macy's plus department is in the basement, all the way in the back corner. We get it that we are not what society wants us to look like but throwing us in a corner isn't going to change the statistics in America today. That being that 67% of American women are plus-size.

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To all the girls reading this who may be plus-size,

It's OK! You're beautiful and lovable. If you want to buy that crop top, buy it. Life is too short to hide behind a baggy T-shirt. We are just as gorgeous as the girls that we envy. Be the one to change the opinion of the world. Fat rolls don't need to be embarrassing. Your stretch marks are beautiful. Don't ever let the world tell you not to eat that cheeseburger either.

In the end, this earthly life is temporary. We are on this earth for a blink of an eye. Don't let anything stand in your way. Wear the bikini, the crop top, and the short shorts. Post the sassy selfie you've had on your phone for 6 months and you won't post because you have a double chin or your head looks "too big." Who cares. BE YOU and love yourself while you're at it.

I'll start.

Cover Image Credit: Victoria Hockmeyer

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