Have you ever been in love and it was so toxic but you can't help it? Love works in mysterious ways all the time its a repeated cycle of pain and love. You meet someone you think they are the one you fall for them they show you a different side and its up to you to decide whether to leave or stay and that is the worst part because a part of you says stay another leave.
Your heart is split in the middle your mind is battling with right and wrong and all you can do is cry and think. You're friends telling you to leave him but they don't understand you or your situation. Now you have nowhere to turn too and the person you want the most doesn't want you and it's like a stabbing right in the middle of your soul. You want them so bad that you lay in bed crying late at night. Think of their arms around you tight hearing there heart beat silently.
You want to forget they exist but your consciousness won't let you and it makes everything worse for you. You dream about being with them dream of all the finer things. You wake up and realize being with them was all a dream all the good things was make believe.
You want them to happen but they don't want it too. All you have left to do is walk around with a fake smile and pretend like your heart isn't hurting trying to keep going but it hurt so much and no one knows.
