Between us, boys are so beyond extremely complicated. But what is even more complicated is realizing whether or not you see a future of love or a future of friendship. I think what most people my age are struggling with is being OK with just being friends. Everyone assumes that if a guy and a girl hang out that they are immediately boyfriend and girlfriend, and there can be no in between. You can't ask for advice without flirting, you can't go out to eat with them without everyone thinking it's a date, you can't post a picture without it being scandalous. To me that isn't fair.
I have been in love, I know what that feels like... and this isn't it. There is a huge difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. To be in love means that you are willing to give your life for that one person, 100 percent, mentally, physically and emotionally. To love someone means that not only do they make you happy, but they make you a better person. You can love as many people as your heart allows, but you can only be in love with one other.
To me, you are so special if you are part of my life, because I don't allow just anyone to know my deep dark secrets. Growing up you are told that boys are friends with boys and girls are friends with girls. When a boy and a girl get anywhere near each other they become an item. But that is not what I want for us. For us that just isn't the case, and it never will be. You understand me like no other person on this entire planet. I tell you everything. You understand the boyish sides of me, and I understand the girly sides of you, and for that I am grateful. You pick me up at 3 a.m. to take me to Wawa, and you answer my 29 phone calls just for me to vent about other stupid boys. I let you complain about never getting any sleep and how awesome you think this new movie is, even though you know I don't watch the same genre. We don't fight or get jealous because we are just like brother and sister there is no chemical reaction. Just amazing friendship.
So just between me and you, we don't need to be in love with each other, because that is not who we are together. We talk about everything from scarfing down pizza, to awkward first dates with other people and I want you to know how incredibly special you are to me. Thank you for all the jokes and ridicule. Thanks for all the Wawa runs and bailing me out of late night college dorm rooms. And thank you for listening to all of my problems even when I complain about my nail polish chipping. But that's what friends are for, and that is all we will ever be, because that's OK.
