I’ve had a good run in life. I really can’t complain too much, especially with how wild and wicked the world can be. Many wonderful people have impacted my life and many terrible people have impacted it as well. I’ve had the chance to see and experience many things and experience love with many people. So, I guess what I’m trying to say is that life is good.
Well, life is great.
But, I wouldn’t pick any of you over again. It sounds harsh, but it’s really not, and you shouldn’t take offense to it. Imagine you get a chance to go back to adolescence and do everything all over again.
Can you say confidently that you wouldn’t do things differently yourself? I understand that I’m not married and I don’t have children, and so this is an easier decision for me to make, but that’s part of my reasoning.
Let’s break it down.
We can start with my university. I adore my university and every aspect about it. I bleed our colors and I have our mascot up all over my room. But, I could have gone somewhere else, and maybe I wouldn’t be in so much debt if I tried harder earlier in life. It’s a great institution, but it’s not Ivy League. I could not have rejected the Pratt Institute and followed my passion for architecture, but I chose here and business because it was comfortable. I don’t regret it, I found a major I love with a lot of influential professors and great classmates, but it could be different. It could be better. It could be worse. But, I don’t mind the possibility of finding out how it could have been.
Heck, I could have focused on sports and be treated like a god in America, or learned how to design and code and take over the Silicon Valley.
I wouldn’t mind leaving behind the memories of ex-lovers for people I did not pursue. I had a blast, and I hope you did as well. There were moments that were pure ecstasy, and moments of complete chaos. But, the thing about ex-lovers is that you are ex-lovers for a reason, so it obviously didn’t work out for the better. So, why not skip all the heartbreaks and pursue different love interests?
The hardest part to leave behind would be friends, but once you narrow down the friends you have that only call you for a favor and friends that only call you for a pint (sham friends), and separate them from your real squad, you realize that leaving most of them behind for the chance of a better personal life wouldn't be such a hard decision. Even if you went back in time and did everything differently, it doesn't mean you couldn't reach out to the people you really do care about and that have benefited you in this life, so you could always get your squad back eventually.
The least of my worries is family, because no matter what family is always there, and if anything going back would make me appreciate the family that isn't here today even more.
In the end it's silly to get into this hypothetical situations about how and what could be, but it's always nice to day dream once in a while.
