We have all had that one relationship that has left us with the "never again" feeling. After my last relationship, I had promised myself that I would never let anyone in again. I was one hundred percent certain that I would be alone for the rest of my life. Is that selfish of me? At the time I didn't think so. I was in a dark place for a long time. Out of nowhere, I met the most amazing person on this planet. I was nowhere near ready to let my guard down again, but I tried anyway. I kept flirting with this girl on twitter, replying to her tweets, hoping she would notice me. On April 17, 2019, I finally worked up the nerve to DM her. Get this, she responded in about 24 seconds. "She's been waiting on that for a minute", I thought to myself.
I fell for this girl before I even met her. She was so goofy, and I was simply in awe of her beauty. I had missed the way it felt to be appreciated, but a part of me still had that wall up. We talked consistently for two or three months, and one night I broke down and said we should stop. This was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I wanted her with my whole being, but she deserved so much better than me. She deserved someone who was going to be completely open with her. Someone who would give all their love to her, but I just wasn't ready for that.
Finally after about a month of not talking, I couldn't go on with my life without her. I completely opened up to her. I told her everything about me, my past, and my present. I told her why I was so guarded, and why I stopped talking to her before. I made myself completely vulnerable to her. When I tell you she has a heart of gold, I don't mean it lightly. She completely understood everything I was telling her. She could have read my message and never talked to me again. I am so thankful she gave me that second chance to love her because I have never felt this way about anyone.
Fast forward to today, and we have officially been together for seven months. I have never loved a soul so pure. She gives me constant reassurance. The way she loves me is a feeling everyone deserves to be loved. This woman is beyond anything I could have ever wished for. She pulled me from the darkness and brought me to the light. I am never letting this relationship die. That spark from the first day I saw her is still here today. The flame burns hotter than ever. Being in a good, healthy relationship is the best feeling in the world. She is the one, and one day she will have my last name.
Sometimes I still doubt her love for me, but she is so quick to put me in my place. I am so thankful for her persistence and devotion to me. Loving her has made me such a better person. I hope everyone gets to experience this type of love. God, I hope she loves me forever. Moral of the story, allow yourself to be loved again. It is okay to open up. This life is all about taking chances. Without no risk there is no reward.
