I had a friend. Not just any friend, if that’s what you were thinking. No, a person that resembled me so much, that I called them my family by choice. We had the same personality, the same thoughts, the same views, the same heart… A bond that I thought could never be broken. Someone who saved me from the lowest point in my life, who never left my side.. Who gave me the want to do something better.
As we grew older, we drifted apart. We had different lives, different views. But I knew they would always be there. We were always each other’s fallback. When things got bad, we’d run to each other for help or just someone to talk to. Their family was my family, and my family was theirs. This person was my best friend.
Like most, things change.. There’s nothing more in life I want than for them to be happy. I want them to know their worth, and always strive to be the very best person he can be. There’s no one that can replace that person or our friendship. And I don’t want that anyway.
When you have someone you value so much, how do you deal with it? Are you supposed to move on like it never happened? Are you supposed to fix it? Or just let them have their space?.. There’s no right or wrong answer. To each it’s own, but it’s hard nonetheless.. Who’s to say this is the end? Maybe it’s not. But for right now, I’m at a loss.
If you're not losing friends, you're not growing up.. Right? That's something my mom has always told me. I've had to adapt because I relied on our friendship so much. I have learned to cope with my decision, because in the end who looks out for you better than yourself? I hate that things changed. I hate that they became someone that I didn't know anymore. I hate that I invested so much time into our friendship for this to be the outcome.
I am okay. I am strong. I am independent. And I wish them the very best. I hope that their lives are filled with love and laughter. I hope they figure out every thing they want in life and work for it. I hope they find themselves. I hope that one day, they understand I did this for me. And most of all, I hope that they know that I still care for them with all my heart.
What’s that quote?
“Everything will be okay in the end.. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”
