It's hard when you've grown up with someone being your best friend for 17 years and then out of nowhere, they drop you. You start thinking things like "what did I do wrong" and "am I a bad friend" or even "I would never do that to them"... It's so hard thinking that someone can just throw away years of memories like three week old leftovers. It makes you question if all your friends see you as annoying or clingy or easy to leave... Everyone talks about how hard it is to lose a significant other, but losing a best friend is so much harder.

It's hard when you can just feel them slipping away. When you can see you're the one always starting the conversation, you're the one always trying to make plans, you're the one putting forth all the effort. It's so hard having someone who you consider your other half just walk out. It sucks when you see a picture that makes you think of them, or hear your song on the radio and start to remember all the memories you made. When you scroll through your photographs and half are of them. It is so difficult to just move on, make new friends, and try to trust they won't leave you.

If there is one thing I have learned through losing so many friends, is that it happens. Some people are just like the seasons. They come and go. But, there will be people who come into your life and stick like an octopus to your face. It's still hard and you'll always miss them. I miss friends I lost contact with in fifth grade, and that was over ten years ago. But, I've also gained amazing friends that if I wouldn't have lost past friendships, I wouldn't have found. It's hard to come to terms with ending a friendship or losing someone, but it's part of growing up.