Some dates are always easy to remember; birthdays, anniversaries, thanksgiving, Christmas, etc… and while those dates are ones you want to remember there are some you don't. For me that date is the day my whole world came crashing down at the young age of seven. It was one of the days that I will most definitely remember for the rest of my life. A day that played a huge part in who I am today. That day is the day that I lost both of my parents.

When a loved one of any kind passes away it takes a toll on you no matter how close you were to them. To lose both of your parents before you ever really got to know either of them is one of the worst possible things to have to deal with. A piece of you actually dies with them even if you are only seven and don't really understand the aspects of death.

People will tell you that it “gets easier” but what are they really saying? It gets easier living without your parents? It gets easier growing up without them? It gets easier knowing you won't see them again? What? Because it's a lie, none of it gets easier.

People will tell you they're sorry and they “know how hard it is to lose a loved one” but that doesn't compare. Yes, losing a loved one is extremely hard and is hard to deal with. But losing the only two constants you had ever known doesn't compare to losing just any loved one. Most people have their parents around to watch them graduate high school and/or college and to see them get married. Knowing your father won't be there to walk you down the aisle is hard to think about. Knowing your mom won't be around to help pick out your wedding dress is unthinkable.

You get a new family whether it's an aunt, uncle, grandparents, or two completely new strangers. While you want to give them as much love as you have your parents you just don't have that to offer anymore because a piece of your heart is forever missing.

“But she wasn’t around, and that’s the thing when your parents die, you feel like instead of going into every fight with backup, you are going into every fight alone.”