How've you been? I've missed you. I miss how we used to be. I wish things wouldn't have changed between us. But they have. I've been thinking about you a lot lately and the memories we made together. To quote Twenty One Pilots, I "wish we could turn back time." I wish we could fix whats broken. Ever since you decided to become a different person, we haven't spent much time together. We were supposed to take on the world together. Now I'm lucky if you like my Instagram picture. I hope you're doing OK. I would ask you, but we aren't on that level anymore to just casually talk and have a conversation.
Maybe you were right about me. I've noticed that lately. I wish you weren't always right about everything, but you are. When you told me we couldn't be friends anymore, I wasn't sad. I was angrier that you took yourself away from me. You were the best friend I've ever had. Maybe it was all in my head, but I thought we'd be friends until the end just like we'd talked about so many nights before. You hurt me a lot, even when we were still friends. You would constantly do things to hurt me, but I kept telling myself 'oh it's ok, she doesn't mean it.' Maybe at the time it wasn't intentional, but I wouldn't believe you now if you paid me.
If there is one thing I can thank you for, it's for giving me some of the greatest memories I have. Looking back you were a shitty friend, but at least we always had fun. It's unfortunate that not everyone gets to see you the way I once saw you. I thought you were the most insightful, generous, hysterical person I've ever met. my adventure buddy, shoulder to cry on, fellow McDonald's lover, and concert lover. You wouldn't believe the number of times I've had to defend you and be there for you when nobody else was. I did that all because that's what a real friend does. You'll never know anything about a real friendship. And for that, I'm sorry. I needed to write this letter for everyone who has ever had a fake friend like you. Some things can never be forgiven and some things can never be unsaid. You were in the wrong and I now know that. One of these days all this will come back to haunt you and I won't be around to pick up the pieces. you're on your own for this one. Good luck in college.
Sincerely,
An old friend
