I find it difficult to keep my feelings bottled up inside. I have always struggled trying to find what my purpose is on this planet while I am busting my butt in school and struggling to make money just to pay my bills. As sad and depressing as that sounds, it's the truth; and I know I am not the only one that feels this way. Let me explain.

I just want to live life. Living life isn't about going to school, letting debt drown you just as much as your tears did trying to get that degree. It's not about getting that one job that helps pay your bills, just to get by. That's called surviving. I have literally, been spending the last two and a half years surviving. Transfer after transfer, class after class, bill after bill, and meltdown after meltdown, I have grown tired. I am gasping for air in this society where we just suck up the oxygen; we are just existing and not using our gifts, knowledge, and wisdom to get through life. I do not want to be here to exist; I want to be here for a purpose. If I am not growing, what on earth am I doing here? Why do I deserve to breathe and live? Why be here if I have absolutely nothing to offer anyone or anything? Everyone has a magnificent purpose, but some people just don't put it to use.

What are you doing? What am I doing? What could we all be doing? Let me tell you what we are doing. We are constantly surrounding ourselves with people that aren't good for us, environments that hold us captive, working for the root of all evil, and investing time in things that do not contribute to our growth and purpose. This is why we hurt. Don't you want something more in life that temporary entertainment and leisure? Whatever happened to wanting satisfaction and happiness that lasts a lifetime? I know, I am asking for too much. However, I will never ignore the fact that I have more to live for than to go to school, work, and pay bills. I am generous, kind, helpful, and loving. Those are purposeful gifts that could be more useful to the world than anything I could EVER learn in college. It can change people's lives and the cruel world that we live in. We only have one life to live. Please fulfill your purpose while you have the chance to.