Dear Little Sister,

I have held you in high esteem from the moment I first laid my eyes on you. You were so small, so fragile. They had you hooked up to all sorts of monitors and machines, but they didn't bother me a bit. My little NICU sister was always beautiful to me.

As you grew, I only loved you more. I remember when you first started coming to visit me, you could only sit up. I thought those times were difficult, but then you started to run around! After that, you were talking! Now I know what a pill you can truly be, but that has never bothered me.

I have high hopes for you, sister. You're going to be three soon, and then it's on to 13.

We share the same father and so I know how you will feel. Things are going to be harder because he is not around like he should be. You'll sometimes wonder if his mistakes have anything to do with you. You'll sometimes resent him. Sometimes, you'll love him too much. He'll always be in the back of your mind, and that's okay, but try to not let his decisions affect you.

I want you to think about him when you're making every decision, so that life does not lead you down the path it led him. I want you to be stronger than he is, and I know you will be.

I hope that you do not have your feelings hurt when he does not show up for birthdays and holidays. Know that it's okay to be mad, but also remember that he does love you, it's just hard for him sometimes. Try and be understanding. When you forgive him, it becomes easier to forgive everyone else.

Love with your whole heart, sissy. Sometimes it is easier to be reserved, but you'll find that in reservation there is solitude, and loneliness is the worst feeling behind regret.

Be thankful for those who help you as you grow up. You can be anything you want because you have an amazing support system. I believe in you, but I'm far from the only person who does.

Never lose your childlike wonder. You have a great imagination and I hope it stays with you forever. No one likes a boring person, and you're far from boring.

Most importantly, sister, always remember that no matter what you do or who you become, you have me.

I love you,
Your Older Sister