Dear Ex,
First things first, I was fine before you, and I will be fine after you.
I really did not count on you coming into my life, but I also did not see you leaving so quickly, either. Did you really have to make me meet your family just to tell me we "aren't that serious" a week later? When did that other girl on the other side of the phone become more important than the one lying next to you? I am not mad that you do not want me; I am mad that you sometimes act like you do. You are confusing to me.
I am still learning to love myself, so I am not going to apologize for who I am, but I will apologize that you never got a chance to actually understand what made me the way I am. I wish you were capable of loving me, but I'll find someone eventually who is. With that being said, I wish you the best, but do not expect me to stay friends.
Sincerely,
The One That Got Away
P.S. I think I might miss your dogs more than you.
Dear Next,
In my past, I have had guys kiss me the same day that they tell me they need to start moving on, so forgive me if I have trust issues. However, if you show me respect, I will give the same in return. I expect you to go out with your friends and not text me back every two minutes. I am OK with that, but what I am not OK with is dishonesty. If you feel a certain way, tell me. I may be capable of talking a thousand words per minute, but I am also very capable of listening to what you have to say. Once I have committed, I am loyal. I will be there when you need me and will give you space when you ask for it.
I can get dramatic, I can get a little messy, I can get hangry, but most of all, I can cook a mad grilled cheese. I would love to spoil you.
All I ask for is patience, reassurance and communication. Sometimes things that have happened with friends and family in the past will give me flashes of anxiety, but I do not mean to take it out on you, so please do not give up on me. I also am usually the first to apologize; I do not like being on bad terms with people. Please do not take advantage of this.
Take me on dates to church, go hiking with me, or watch three seasons of a show on Netflix with me; it doesn't take much to keep me happy as long as I have your company.
Love,
The One Who Is Ready To Love
