Dear Friend,
I laughed today, October 17, 2016, for the first time since 2010. It is almost ironic, that statement itself makes me laugh a little. It has been six years. Six years of battle that I almost lost, several times. But I am smiling and I am not going to lie I am shedding a few tears as well, simply because, I had forgotten what a real smile feels like. I forgot what it feels like to be up at one in the morning journaling about your good day as opposed to those days filled with complete and utter sorrow. I forgot what it feels like to be bent over in pain… from laughing too much. Abs burning and cheeks aching, I had forgotten it all. I know in this life you have seen the worst of the worst. I know in this life you have felt unloved and alone. But in this life, you have also restored my spirit, and let me tell you, that is something I thought was lost long ago.
Today, October 17, 2016, I found a person that I know will be in my life forever. A person who I can trust and a person who will drive around with me for hours on end when I am sad. I know, for it has already happened. So thank you for this. For being yourself and for relating to me, this is something not many can do. And as I lie here, I continue to ponder how this happened. I think about the first time we met and our extra emotional conversation during recruitment. I think about all of the days spent together since then. I think about our nights up until four in the morning playing the game we like to call, “I just don’t understand.” And one statement I would like to add is, “I just do not understand how it happened.” How I ran into a human as similar as myself, who has a similar story, and who has a similar mind. Was it a coincidence or was it God? And as I am looking at the puzzle piece by piece, breaking it apart, and analyzing every single aspect, I am thinking it was God. We are both alive today when at one point, we almost were not.
So I would like to say to you, thank you for existing when I know you do not always want to. Thank you for being yourself and thank you for being such a light in my life. Every time you walk in, you make me smile, you make me feel alive. And that my friend, is a feeling I thought I would never experience again. Today, October 17, 2016, I laughed, all because of the creation of a single human being twenty years ago.
