To The One I Miss The Most,

There is not a day that goes by without you crossing my mind. No matter if it is a song, a road, hearing wise riddles you would always use, everything and anything can bring the memories to life. I miss you, a lot. Some days I miss you more than I should. Other days, I try my best to not let your memory take full control over my brain. Losing you has been my toughest battle so far, and it has brought many minute battles with it. Going through a day without thinking of you is nearly impossible, and until it happens, I believe that it will always be impossible. You did not know the amount of happiness you brought into my life with every smile, every song you would sing to me, with every memory we made. You did not know that I believed that you hung the moon and stars. You would not believe that every day you are not here is another day that I walk around with the weight of the world sitting on my shoulders. Maybe that is overdramatic to others, but to me, it seems as if one more thing got added on, my world would come crashing down. You have no idea how many stares I have gotten while breaking down because for some reason, I just could not keep it held in that day. If you were still around, I know you would not be happy with me for the way I get so upset when people talk during a song that held a thousand memories of you. You would not be happy that being around family makes me miserable because you are not here, and most of all, I know you would not be happy with how unhappy I am without you. I try to imagine what you would tell me, and with that, I try to find some comfort. Others try to understand, but they don't, and I don't expect them too. You had a lot of different relationships with everyone you loved, but the problem with that is that no one can understand ours. No one will ever be able to understand it because we shared a bond that nothing could ever break. They say it will be okay , but what they do not understand is that it will never be okay. It will never be easier. The pain will never go away. There will be times i will be able to hide it for a little while, and there will be times i will not be able to hide it no matter how hard I try. I know people are dealing with this situation just as I am. I hope that they can relate to me as I wish that I could relate to them. If only you knew how many people have shown bits and pieces of what made you whole, you would be amazed. I will not lie and say that it doesn't get to me ever because sometimes, it hits me a lot harder than it should. It does bring a smile to my face and ease to my heart, though. It makes me happy to know that others out there share the same wonderful and beautiful characteristics as you did. I miss you more than anything in this world, and if I could give anything to bring you back into my life, I would. I hold on to the memories and the songs and I drive down roads to be able to feel your presence one more time. I will continue to love you with my entire heart. I will continue to miss you more than imaginable, and I will continue to make it through each day. In my heart, I know you are somewhere over the rainbow.

I love you forever,

The One Who Misses You.