I want to start off by saying, contrary to what you may believe, there is nothing wrong with you.
It's not the end of the world to not ever have a date to the movies, to always be the only one paying for their own food when everyone goes out, and not getting chocolate on Valentine's Day.
Having a boyfriend is not always everything it is cracked up to be.
I will be the first to admit that it would be nice to have someone who enjoys spending time with you, takes you out, surprises you, and all of that gushy stuff.
We would all go out to eat as a group, and I would literally be the only person who needed a solo check, or the only girl in the group who ended up paying for their own movie ticket. It sucked, and a lot of the time I was having a great time, until the waitress or waiter asked how we were doing checks. I would be the one to say "those two, those two, those two, and I am just by myself."
Don't get me wrong I did not just go out with a whole bunch of couples all of the time, I just had a lot of friends who brought their dates when we all went out. Two of my best friends are dating each other, and with them I never feel like an odd wheel, and the little things like paying for myself never really bothered me, because with just the two of them I did not really think about it either.
For the longest time, I thought that there was something wrong with me. Why don't boys like me? I would sit around and just count the flaws that I had, and all of the reasons no one would ever want to be my date to anything.
That really needed to stop. I realized very quickly that pointing out everything negative about myself might just so happen to be the main thing that needed to be worked on.
Your time will come. That is exactly what I kept telling myself.
When I was in high school, I only went to homecoming and prom my senior year, because it was my senior homecoming and prom. I did not have a date to either.
But, I had a blast at both dances! I was dancing and having a great time, not worried about a thing. Meanwhile, a few girls were mad at their boyfriends, and ticked off because they weren't getting along with each other at the moment.
That was not me, I was too busy not worrying about boys, and worrying about making memories that I am glad now that I have.
Having a boyfriend may have it's perks, yes; but when it comes down to it, not having one, and never having had one, is not the end of the world.
There is someone out there who is waiting for you, and is going to give show you the world. He is going to prove to you that there is absolutely nothing wrong with you, and show you that he means it.
Now being 21 and no longer dealing with high school has definitely helped me get over that whole idea of "needing a boyfriend" or even wanting one.
You are beautiful, and do not need a boyfriend to show people that.