I am a perfectionist. My entire life I have wanted to do everything on my own. When I was a little girl, my parents would try and help me with my homework, but when I did ask for help I felt weak. I wouldn't let them help me because I wanted to figure it out on my own. This made me feel more frustrated and lost because I didn't know what I was doing. I felt like I was too stupid to do things on my own. Like I had already failed because I couldn't do it on my own.

This is still a serious struggle for me. I have always struggled with being insecure about my intelligence. Never in my life have I felt smart. But when I think about it I know I have to be, because I graduated from high school and I have passed my classes in college so far. But the bottom line is, I want to be perfect. I want to be beautiful, smart, funny and Godly.

I want to be the best at everything I do. And when I'm not, I shut down. I feel like I can't do anything right. I have a tutor in the majority of my classes, my parents help me pay for college, and I have no idea how to be an adult. I am not perfect. The hard part is looking at myself in the mirror and excepting that I am never going to be good at everything, and asking for help is OK. But the most important thing that I have to remember, is that I need to give everything to God.

I can't do this on my own. I can't pass my classes, do well in my jobs, and be a good adult by myself. I feel like God gives me these moments of being on the verge of breaking because He wants to remind me that I can't do this on my own. He is telling me that He wants me to depend on Him. So to the girls that are like me in this way, just remember that you are extraordinary. You are not alone and God does not give us more than we can handle.

“No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” - 1 Corinthians 10:13