A Letter To The Boy Who Taught Me How To Love

A Letter To The Boy Who Taught Me How To Love

You broke down walls I didn't even know I had

I won't say that I've never felt love, and I won't say that I've never known love or how to love. But I can say that I've never learned how to love with my entire being. So much so that I would give endless days just for one more hour together.

I never knew my heart could hold so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much that I couldn’t understand how I had never felt a love like this before. I never knew that the world held so much color and I never knew that I was allowed to feel this kind of love until you showed me how.

Loving you has made me realize my passions, realize my dreams, and realize my wants. Now don’t get me wrong, I knew all of these things before and I knew my self-worth and I knew what I stood for but it was always in a foggy haze. Once I met you and learned that your love was safe, it was like all of the fog disappeared and I learned that my passions, dreams and wants could all become a reality as long as I wanted them hard enough.

Safe, I learned for the first time in a long time what it meant to feel safe. Yes, I felt safe in my house with my family, but not this kind of safe. It’s like anything and everything that could hurt me in the world not only had to go through me but go through you. It was like I had someone fighting on my team, relentlessly, and that made me feel safe no matter what battle I was facing. I felt my safe place become your arms, and I could feel you holding my heart in your hands as you cupped my face and kissed away tears.

You once told me, “You have me, though, you don’t have to face things alone anymore” and without you even being aware it shattered every wall that I had ever built. That sentence told me that you were different. It told me that when no matter what I had to face you would be there, it told me that despite my past and the things that could arise from it, you would fight with me. It told me that you were there, and you weren’t leaving.

You slowly tore down every wall that I had built around myself. Every wall that I had made sure never moved, no matter who tried to budge it, the walls stood tall. But with you, it was different. With you, the walls came crumbling down and instead of letting them crash you caught them and built a home for me with the broken pieces. You build a home for this relationship, a place that I not only feel safe, but beautiful.

I could write for hours about how your love has changed me for the better and I could write for days about how learning how to love (you) has been the greatest adventure of my life. But all I can say is thank you, thank you for not giving up, thank you for not hanging up and always calling back when I wanted to be difficult. Thank you for making sure we never go to bed upset, thank you for always taking the time to make my days special, thank you for loving me with all that you have. And thank you for letting me love you.


Your Forever & Always

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Breaking Down Country: Stupid Boy

She will be long gone.

She was a perfect prayer in a desperate hour.

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands.

The kind of girl who would have done anything for you,

anything for the two of you to be together.

You stupid boy.

What made you think that you could take her and break her down.

After every chance she gave you.

After all of the broken promises, and heart breaks.

All she wanted to do is love you.

You stupid boy.

She grew wild but innocent.

You’ve seen her grow, you’ve seen her at her lowest.

You’ve been there through it all, you’ve seen it all

Her pure strength, willpower, compassion, and ability to love.

You should know that you can’t fence that in.

You stupid boy.

You stole her dreams, every night you were there.

Stupid boy, you should have known you can’t hold back the wind.

Don’t build yourself up so high.

Next time you want her back after you leave her,

she may be long gone.

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5 Reasons Why Generation X Men Are The Best To Date

Respect to all my Generation X men, may you never forget that the world is a beautiful place and just plain “Dy-no-mite!”

RockMy generation: Generation X. Those born between 1965 and 1980 have survived Reaganomics, Watergate, The War in Afghanistan (so far) and soaring college tuition prices. We were told we were lazy, ironic and dismissive, but in reality, we are passionate, empathetic and thoughtful, and when it comes to the men of my generation, I got nothing but love.

I guess I’m a purist and maybe a little old fashioned, but I don’t get into men who are much younger or much older than I. Perhaps it’s a comfort zone of sorts or an area I am drawn to because of my 80’s upbringing, but Generation X’ers have it going on. We get each other on so many levels: musically, morally, politically (most of the time) and culturally. So here is my homage to Generation X men, may you live long and prosper.

  1. Most of the Generation X men are not into the whole beard thing. These beauties were brought up in a time where their father’s taught them to keep their mugs clean and smooth, so when they make out with someone they don’t rub their hairy chins all over their significant others’ faces and get them all bumpy and red. It’s just plain nice to shave your face, but don’t get me wrong, these men are not afraid to get their hands dirty. They rode dirt bikes and skateboards in the 70’s and stage dove in the 80’s. Be still my beating heart.

  2. Their love of 80’s music. Let’s face it, the 80’s rocked, whether your special someone was into Punk Rock, Post-Punk, Freestyle, or Rock and Roll, Generation X men know what’s up and they know their music and could rock anything from Chuck Taylors to Doc Martens. Hot.

  3. They get the feminism word and know it is not a bad word and most are down to fight for the rights of all, but still know how to treat a lady. They understand the female plight and will march arm in arm, cheering you on from the sidelines, but still hold the car door open for you on a date. Meow.

  4. They know the difference between Starsky and Hutch, better yet; they know the show inside and out. They also know that Janet Jackson was a regular on Good Times, the television show. You know, “Dy-no-mite!” They can openly discuss Speed Racer and Ultraman as if they are discussing Dostoyevsky and still open a bottle cap with their teeth. They remember when the Flyers won the Stanley Cup and recently cheered in the streets for their beloved Eagles. Purr. Purr. Purr.

  5. Finally, Generation X men are not afraid to be vulnerable. They struggled with their toughness in the 80’s but learned through their experiences that the world is a difficult place, but when you find those you trust, the world becomes that much bigger and can be a place filled with love and laughter, but often tears, which they share with their counterparts openly and with soul. Sniff. Sniff.

The media still attempts to discount Generation X as the “lost generation”. I say we are the generation who will save the human race because of our guts and grit.

Respect to all my Generation X men, may you never forget that the world is a beautiful place and just plain “Dy-no-mite!”

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