To The Boy Who Left Too Soon,
My biggest regret will always be the fact that there were things left unsaid. It will always hang over my head like a dark cloud, the idea that you left this earth without knowing how big of an impact you made on me. If I could take it all back and rewind to the last conversation we had, I would do it in a heartbeat. Although there is no going back and it’s too late for us to ever have this talk, here are a few things I wish I could have told you.
First, I want to thank you. Thank you for changing my life in more ways than one, and for being my person for so many years. Things weren’t always perfect and we had our fair share of disagreements but without them, we wouldn’t have been “us.” Having you in my life has made me who I am and I am really starting to love that person.
Thank you for all of our adventures, food runs, and movie nights. For being my personal diary and listening to all of my thoughts, goals, and secrets for so many years. For putting up with all of my weird quirks and awkward tendencies, and for caring about my wellbeing. Thank you for making me a stronger person, while you were here and even after you passed. I feel as if I can handle anything that life throws at me and I owe a lot of that to you. Thank you for bringing me closer to so many people, although I wish it were under different circumstances. I am now secure and confident in my relationship with my family, my best friends, and with God. They got me through my darkest of days.
I would want you to know that I miss your extroverted personality and how you could brighten anyone’s day. You were a ladies’ man, a jokester, a man of God, the list could go on and on. Although we will always miss you, God needed you up there more than he needed you here on Earth.
I also would want you to know that I was so angry. So very mad at you. Mad at you for leaving all of us and without any kind of warning, for not giving us a chance to say goodbye. But with that being said, over time we have had the opportunity to heal, grow in our faith, and come to terms with what has happened, and with that; I have peace of mind.
To the boy who left too soon, you will always have a special place in my heart and I will forever miss you. Thanks for everything.
