Dear the boy I let go,
First off thank you. Thank you for making me feel good. All those times you called me cute, laughed at my jokes, stayed up texting me, sent me snap chats, listened to me talk, and so much more. Thank you. You made me feel special. Although I didn’t show it, I appreciate every second with you. You made me feel good, and open my eyes wider than they ever been.
You taught me more than you can imagine. Showed me the world, and showed me how to have fun, made me comfortable being in my own skin, and most of all with you. Your insight of this world, and showing me the world through your eyes, is something I will always remember. You have so much to give to this world. People like you are the reason that there is joy around the world. I now know joy because of you.
Your beauty is something you should know. The way you feel with your full heart is something I envy. Your soul is one that is a beautiful piece of art. I had the privilege to hold it, be one with it, and most of all, love it. I want you to know that I loved you the day I said I couldn’t do this anymore, and I continue to do so today. But don’t confuse this with being in love. To love someone is the greatest gift, but to love a soul like yours is a true honor. And I am sorry if I dented or dropped your soul. I never meant to hurt you, and I will never know if I really did or not, but know that I love you, and I will do anything for you. I want you to soar in everything you do. I am here so that happens.
For me, love is a powerful thing. With it comes great responsibility. I care about you, and when you hurt, I hurt. I do not know what to be madly in love feels like. But I do know what it feels like to love someone. And I love you. I would do anything for you, and drop anything in a heartbeat to be with you. You can fall out of being in love, but you can never stop loving someone.
I am so sorry that I sometimes blocked you. It takes a village to knock down the walls I create, but you helped me break them down. I know I could have been more open with you, and I am sorry I often made a guessing game for you.
I want you to know that the reason I stopped how our relationship was evolving was not because of anything you are. I needed to love myself before I could really be with someone. And you have helped get me in the right mindset. When we first met, I knew much less. But through my time with you, I grew and became more of an adult.
You opened my eyes, and touched my heart and soul for the better. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you. I do not know what the future will bring, or where we will be, but I hope that we are by each other’s sides somehow, every step of the way.
I am always just a phone call away,
Love always
