Hey you,
We haven’t spoken in awhile and I don’t know how I feel about that. I hate that we don’t talk anymore. You used to be my go-to. You were my ride or die, you were “My Person” and now we aren’t even friends on facebook. How did that happen? I don’t even remember the words exchanged the finalization of the termination of our friendship. Did I take it too far? Did you? I can’t remember. Sure I remember us fighting, I remember thinking you weren’t the same person anymore, but I just keep trying to figure out if it was really worth losing you as my best friend.
I miss you, but I also haven’t forgiven you yet. In some ways, a friend breakup is far worse than any boyfriend breakup I have ever endured. I think you broke my heart more than any guy ever could have. Probably because I told you more than I have ever told a guy. Through all the different guys and girl drama and everything in between, you were my person I ran to. I held you when you cried, I told you boys were stupid, I constantly reminded you how beautiful you were, when your other “best friends” weren’t giving you the support you needed, I would tell you they sucked and that I would always be there for you. It was always us against the world. I thought it was anyway. The biggest disappointment was being on the other side. It was you and your other best friends against me and I think that hurt more than seeing an ex with a new girlfriend. You weren’t my best friend anymore, and you didn’t have my back.
I think at the end of the day I appreciate what happened between you and me because it made me a little less trusting, I think everyone needs to go through that kind of heartbreak in their life. However I will never stop missing you, I will never stop grabbing my phone to text you something only you would understand, and I will never stop wishing we were still friends. I will always hope you are doing well and I will always be rooting for you. On some level I think we will always be best friends even if it is only from afar. We invested so much into each other’s lives, I will always be praying for your happiness and my heart will always hurt when I hear that things haven’t been going your way. Even though we don’t talk anymore and even though people might assume we hate each other now, I want you to know how deeply sorry I am and I hope you know I will always be cheering you on.
Love,
Your Ex-Best Friend
