Dear You,

I have never been the type of girl who chased a relationship. I have never been the girl who looked for love. I have never been the girl who became completely consumed by a man.

You changed that for me though. We met at a party, and I knew it was a bad idea from the start. My daddy always taught me that a party is not the place to build a relationship. Nevertheless, we met, and we became inseparable from that moment on.

We had a connection that nobody could deny. You were like the other half that I had never met. Everything you loved to do, I loved to do. Everything you wanted to do, I wanted to do. From music to food to movies to bad habits, we were so alike, it was hard to believe there would ever be a problem between us.

You were the first person I could trust that was not my family or close friends. I let you in and told you my secrets. We laid in an envelope of peace and comfort. We spent only six months together, but it felt like a lifetime. It had felt like I had found my forever, which is so stupid when I think back on it.

I always imagined that when you found your forever, there would be no arguments that you could not overcome. I always thought that when you're soulmate stood in front of you, you would find all of the faults and mistakes to be another piece of beauty. I felt that being with the person you were meant for would mean there was no animosity or anger between you two, only adoration and love.

I stayed with you for six months. For six months, I learned all of your kinks and tricks. For six months, you learned all of my habits and obsessions. For six months, we had built a base for our forever. I grew to love the gap between your teeth. I began to enjoy eating late dinners with you. I began to find peace in between your arms. I began to fall for you -- the over a cliff, free-falling, with no parachute type of fall for you.

We were together for six months, and it only took two-and-a-half hours to destroy it. In two-and-a-half hours, you had managed to destroy my trust. There was no real reasoning -- nothing that you had openly admitted. However, the trust had been destroyed between us. That blanket of safety that we had wrapped around us had been yanked from beneath us. I was not your only like you were mine. No matter how often you try to tell me that I am, I have no ways of believing you, not when the trust had been destroyed so completely.

I miss you. I think I always will. Despite the heartache we were both put through, you will always have the piece of my heart that I won't be able to get back. I have tried to pretend like the chapter of you and me never existed, but it will never be that way. I will always go back to that time with you and think about the things that could have been. I do not think I could go back to you, not in this lifetime. However, I know that given time, you could be my forever again.

I can't say goodbye to you. You hurt me, but you were there for me too. For that, I am grateful beyond words. This is not a goodbye letter, for I could never properly say goodbye to you. I miss you, and I wish you all the best in your life because you deserve it.