Dear ex-best friend,
Hey, I know it's been a long time and I know that time can draw unimaginable lines between people but I want you to know that you still cross my mind every single day. You were once such a large part of my life that it seems impossible to me that we faded out the way we did. I want you to know that I still love you. You were my best friend and no matter who I'm friends with now, no one will ever be who you were to me. No one else will ever be you and sometimes I wonder if that's a bad thing.
I hope you know that every single day something happens to me that I wish I could tell you and not a day goes by that I wish I could text you or call you and just rant to you about whatever is bothering me. I know I can't because you probably don't want to hear it.
Thank you for being the person you are and thank you for sticking by my side as long as you did. It means more than you know. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you all of these things more often when you were by my side every single day.
I want you to know that even today if you picked up the phone and called me at 3 a.m. I would answer the phone and talk you through whatever you needed me to. I wouldn't ignore you and I wouldn't question you. There is nothing in this world that would make me stop caring for you and I need you to understand that.
The time I spent with you as my best friend carries so many incredible memories and even some sad ones. Sometimes I find myself lost in those memories when I hear a certain song and it feels like a part of me is missing. I try not to spend too much time lamenting on the fact that you're gone but sometimes I worry that I won't ever talk to you again.
You see, you picked me up when I hit rock bottom. You promised me everything would be okay when I didn't even think that was possible. You brought me coffee after a sleepless and tear-filled night and you always bought me gifts that were perfect but you were the only one who knew me well enough to get it for me. You watched my favorite movies with me and listened to my music (even though you usually hated my taste in music) and thanks for always thinking of me and changing the radio station when I got into your car.
Thank you for driving when I didn't feel like it. Thanks for the letting me cry with my head in your lap sitting in your car when I felt like the world was crushing me and thanks for the endless amounts of ice cream. Thank you for being amazing no matter what and thank yo for being you. Mostly thank you for always being the one person that always made me feel loved.
I'm sorry. I miss you. I love you.
