A Letter To My Busy Mind -
I want to tell you to breathe, to slow down, give yourself a break, but I know you can't stand that advice.
You hate feeling unproductive, you hate wasting time, you hate feeling like you aren't learning something new, doing something new, getting something done, or growing in some way, and I know you're frustrated. I know you get frustrated when there aren't enough hours in the day, and when you want to prioritize everything but have to let something go.
I understand it all, but I can't sleep. You have to give me at least a few hours, a few hours of quiet time. But you keep planning. You keep worrying. You keep visualizing. You keep reminiscing. I try to help you, I've bought you 2 separate planners, a diary, a notebook for ideas, and we spend so many hours of the day thinking.. so seriously, you have to chill. Devising 9 backup plans for the next 5 years is so unnecessary, along with replaying the last 7 conversations you had word by word just to make sure you didn't miss anything important. You're trying to remember everything from what happened 6 years ago to what's going to happen in the next 6 days, and how to live each day better than the last, and I know you're constantly running in circles, you need to take time to stretch and rehydrate before another lap.
Don't get me wrong, I love you. I love that you're so driven, so intentional, and so eager. I love that you refuse to be anything but successful, that you want to make things right with everyone, that you don't want to accept anything less than perfect, but not everything will be that way. Things are going to go wrong, and you won't always be able to fix it right away. Things are going to hurt, and you can take the time to feel the hurt. People are going to let you down, and you don't have to always find the reason why.
You're exhausted. We're exhausted. Take a break, a real break, where you aren't planning, you aren't remembering, you aren't learning, you aren't doing anything that you consider productive, and instead giving yourself honest rest, so you can get back to being busy stronger than ever.
Thank you for the success, thank you for picking me up when I fail, thank you for bettering me, but please don't burn yourself out.
Sincerely,
The Girl Looking Forward To A Good Night's Sleep
