Dear Boy Who Broke My Best Friend's Heart,
I really did think you were going to be the one she needed forever. I thought you would be the one to take care of her when I couldn't be there. In fact, there were times you did care for her because I physically couldn't. Sometimes, I thought she trusted you more than me.
There were times where she cried into your chest or leaned on your shoulder. She does that to me, too. I trusted you would take proper care of her since I couldn't always answer the phone or travel to her house. I thought you would be sympathetic toward her feelings, helping her feel secure. I believed you would genuinely love her. However, your love and your care barely lasted a year.
I am not angry at you, but I am heartbroken for my best friend and for you, too. It has been nearly six months since the breakup, maybe longer, and her tears through the phone still linger in my mind. The way her voice cracked when she spoke. I was not greeted with a "hello," but immediately informed of her hurting heart.
We both knew what was coming, but the heartache was still there. I thought, "maybe they will make amends and get back together," and though the two of you did find resolution, there wasn't hope for a second chance.
I witnessed her cry subsequently after the breakup, and all I wanted to do was make her smile again. I would send her encouraging Snapchats, wholesome memes, and "good morning" texts. I prayed for her every waking moment. I held her hand on the days I knew she wasn't feeling her best. It wasn't long until she realized that she genuinely needed to know what true love was not.
For months, she didn't know how to cope without the one she poured her heart into the most. She wasn't sure what to do or say. I could sense her confusion and often noticed her lost, tear-filled eyes. She loved you with all of her mind, soul, heart, and body, it seemed. She talked about you most of the day and how she missed you. When the two of you planned a date, she would become jittery and enthusiastic because all she wanted was to see you and love you.
She poured herself into you, but even I knew the love and care she gave you didn't always reciprocate. I noticed your efforts becoming less and less, and her anxiety of a split becoming more and more. She usually didn't worry about breaking up, but come the end of the relationship, she tried to prepare herself for the worst. She didn't want to have the relationship come to an end, but she and I both know she is better now, discovering the future God has in store for her.
My heart breaks for you as you have changed. I thought we were great friends, having almost matching personalities. I made you art, we FaceTimed about video games, and you introduced me to a world of Broadway musicals. You showed me how to have a more positive mindset about life and that I have amazing people who care about me. Although I haven't forgotten the lessons you taught me or the impact you made on my life, we have grown distant.
I tried to keep our friendship alive, but the friendship wasn't worth the effort because it was already dead. I am hurt to know that a person I once considered to be one of my best friends suddenly became a stranger to me. You, also, moved on to a new girl, and with no surprise, you treated her the same. I didn't think you would become someone different, detaching yourself from others and seeming despondent. I barely see you anymore, and every time I wish to talk to you, you vanish, as if you were never present.
Despite the differences and the events that have occurred, I still believe there is good in you. I believe you can become a better person, and we can be the great friends we used to be, but that takes a multitude of prayers and patience.
I trust that you may one day make another girl feel amazing and that you may never stop loving her and caring for her. I trust that you may one day mature from a boy to a man. I still continuously pray for you, I have forgiven you, and yes, I do miss you, but I am not sure who you became after you broke my best friend's heart.
Yours Truly,
Your Ex-Girlfriend's Best Friend
