Dear God,
We used to have a difficult relationship, but I’ve grown a lot closer to you in the last few years. There is a lot I want to say to you so I decided to write it all down. First, I want to thank you for saving me from the lowest point of my life, senior year. Thank you for pulling me out of that dark place, and putting me where I am now. I also want to apologize for the mistakes I have made, and the things I have taken for granted. I know I’m not perfect, but I don’t deserve all of the blessings you have given me. I want to grow even closer to you; I want to be the person you want me to be.
Three years ago I didn’t have much hope for myself. I was miserable, I was heartbroken, and I felt like a complete failure. I was sick of looking at myself in the mirror everyday. I would come home from school everyday and scream at myself. I would hit myself and cry for hours. I felt like I needed to go into a mental hospital because I couldn’t deal with the pain. My family was already going through a lot and I felt like I made it worse. Even trough all of the anger and pain I had, I prayed to you everyday. I prayed that you would save me, and that’s exactly what you did.
When I graduated, I was so excited for a fresh start in college. I loved college. I wasn’t homesick, I made friends, and I even went to Nashville with members of my class. Dorm life was rough, especially my first year, and I ended up living alone my second semester. My freshman year quickly took a turn for the worst. First, I fell for the wrong guy, and he broke my heart. I stopped talking to the friends I made earlier in the year. I stopped caring about my classes, and I kept myself shut in my dorm room. I was mad at you and myself. I felt like you pulled me out of the darkest part of my life, and put me right back in.
Freshman year ended, summer flew by, and I was a sophomore. This is when you really started to turn my life around. I was blessed with a great roommate who pushed me to get outside of my comfort zone, so I signed up for Sorority recruitment. Soon, I became a member of Pi Phi Epsilon and it has changed my life ever since. Instead of hiding in my room every weekend, I was out doing things with my sisters. I started going to worship services on campus, and making new friends. I realized that I was miserable in my major, and I need to find a new one. You blessed me with so much that year, and I cant thank you enough. You also showed me that a real relationship with you was the biggest blessing I could ever receive.
Now, I don’t recognize that girl from three years ago. For the first time in al long time I am truly happy. I have made so many friends, I like my classes and my major, and I am extremely grateful fro my sisters. I realize hat I have made so many mistakes, but they all got me to where I am today. I’m going to keep making mistakes and I know I will go through dark times again, but now I have seen what you have done for me. Now I have a real, unbreakable relationship with you, and I know that will get me through anything. Thank you for listening to me all those years, and thank you for continuing to listen. I have a long way to go, but I will never forget everything you have helped me overcome.
