How are You? It's been a long time since we last spoke to each other, and I'm sorry about that. Life's been busy and hard, and somewhere along the way I just stopped talking to You. I hope this letter could be the renewal of our relationship.

I have so many things to say, so many regrets, hopes, dreams, prayers and ambitions. Can You spare me a moment? Just a moment—I know You're busy.

I need Your help. I sometimes feel selfish for asking since so many other people need You so much more than I do. I just feel so alone and lost. I don't know where I'm going anymore. I tried to do it in my own, but it seems I didn't get very far. For every step I take, I feel like I'm being pushed back two.I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what Your beautiful plan is for me, and that scares me. What if I fail in making You proud? I'm just another sinner in this world, another person that makes mistakes on a daily basis. I have to wonder how You could still love me, Father, when it's so hard for me to love myself after everything I've done.

I feel undeserving of Your grace and mercy.

But putting me aside, there's something I need to ask for that's more important: I pray for everyone in pain and suffering. So many people have been hurt, Lord, in so many different ways. Your beautiful creations have turned against each other, have turned away from You that could bring ultimate happiness into their lives, much like I have done.

Even now, the aftermaths of so many horrors around this planet are causing pain and grief, and I pray that these hurting people may find solace. I pray that You can heal every one of your pieces of art. I pray that their hearts may eventually mend from these terrible crimes.Please provide for the people who need it most. I have no doubt You love each and every one of them. You created them, hand-molded them into a perfect piece of art. You are the God of love and mercy, and I hope, believer or not, these people may feel Your love.

As for the cruel and wicked, for those that turned away from your perfect design to inflict these horrors on the innocent, I only pray they may eventually see the pain they cause. I only pray they may realize something better through You besides the temptation of evil. I wish everyone could realize there's something better through You.

There is nothing more I can say or ask for. As things get worse, as so many people die at the hands of someone playing You, I feel broken and pain. It makes me wonder how you must feel, God, to see and feel and experience all that happens and all that people say. It makes me wonder.

I only hope I can one day understand.