First of all, hi! It's so nice to talk to you again, even if this is just a one-way conversation for now. It's been a few months...or maybe even years...since we last spoke, but I felt the need to reach out.
It's hard to believe we've come this far from where we once were. We used to talk every day. We used to hang out at school every day. But now there is absolutely no contact between us anymore. At the time, it was either necessary for us to go our separate ways or we just drifted…
Of course, I have regrets, don't we all? I've definitely changed from knowing you and you helped shaped who I am becoming or have helped me through some tough times. You were my confidant, through thick and thin there was nothing we couldn't discuss. And now whatever came between us makes us act like we want nothing to do with each other...that could be true for you (hopefully not), but that's not how I feel. We had our time apart, and, to be honest, it hasn't always been the best without you in my life.
We all need certain people to come into our lives at certain times. (Everything happens for a reason, you know, like that kind of stuff). You know who are you. Every one of you that I've lost can probably think of all the specific things that happened between us, and maybe we remember things differently. Personally, I don't think some of those friendships were meant to end. But they did. Life can be like climbing a giant sand dune; it takes some time and can become extremely easy to lose sight of all the beauty and purpose of reaching the top when you have to climb it alone. Yes, I'm perfectly capable of climbing it by myself, but I would prefer to have some company, wouldn't you?
So even if you're done with me, and maybe you will never read this, I hope you know that you were (and will always be) important to me. I appreciate the time we spent in each other's lives. Never feel hesitant to reach out. I'm still your confidant. And I'll always listen to what you need to say. It's not like you have disappeared from my life -- I will always be looking out for your best interest and wondering how things are going for you. And when I ask people how you are, I'm so happy to hear that you are happy and doing well. I genuinely still care for you, no matter what came between us or whatever conflicts we had in the past.
My hope in writing this letter to you is mainly just to say thank you for being a friend to me. It's incredibly difficult to find good friends nowadays and reflecting on my past friendships makes me incredibly grateful to have such amazing people in my life. You were one of them.
Another hope in writing this letter to you is to let you know that I'm always an open door. Don't hesitate to ever reach out just to say hey or if you want to hang out or just to get something off your chest that you never said before. Even if it's been a while and it may not seem right as if that door has closed and there's no way to get back what we used to have. I'm here, letting you know it's never too late to reach out.
My last hope in writing this letter to you is my way of reaching out to you. I've felt hesitant and never know if you may feel this way too. Don't you miss it? Even a little? Enough to say just a brief "hi" every once in a while? Losing someone close to you is something I'm sadly very familiar with. I don't want to lose you too. Even though it feels as though I already have, I'm trying to change that. It doesn't have to be this way. We can change the future of our tattered friendship. That thing we used to hold so close. That thing that used to fill so much of our days. That thing that created so many memories. That thing doesn't have to end forever.
I'm reaching out. I hope you will too.
I'm here. I've always been here.