First of all, I want to say thank you. Thank you for giving me the best memories to hold on to while you run free in the clouds. I haven't really come to terms with losing you; it's more like finding a new way to live. Every day, I find little reminders that you are still with me, and that's how I get by.

Losing you was by far the most devastating thing I have ever experienced. I can still remember the day I found out. It was like the world stopped spinning. My heart has never felt so heavy. Knowing that I couldn't call or text you during after a bad day or just to hear your words of wisdom is enough to knock the breath out of me.

You were one of my best friends, no matter what kind of distance came between us. I could always come to you with anything and everything, and you could do the same. You were my personal fortune cookie, with an endless amount of pep talks and compliments when I needed them the most.

You had so much to give this world, so much knowledge to share. I wish I had your drive to learn. You are one of the smartest people I know, and I could only imagine what you would have done with your future. That's the hardest part. Wondering who you would be today. What you would be doing?

You have the most beautiful mind and soul. I consider myself lucky to have seen the inner workings of your mind. I will never be able to accept that you are really gone, but I know you're still here. I didn't want to know a world without you, but I'm doing my best to figure out a new way to live.

I promise to be more outgoing and adventurous like you always wanted me to be. I promise to live in the moment and to enjoy the little things. Until I see you again, I love you, and I miss you more and more every day.