To the Boy Who Wasn't Ready,
When you started distancing yourself from me, I knew something was off. I began to question myself and dig around in my brain if I had done anything specific to make you become distant. I couldn't think of anything I had done wrong so I began to just think you were busy. But then, two busy weeks turned into three and then into four and then I started to assume the worst. To protect myself, I distanced myself too. I detached myself because I believed I was about to be hurt and I wanted to brace myself for the worst case scenario.
It happened. We talked. And we decided it would just be best to let each other go in that moment, but I believe you let me go weeks before that. We were no longer on the same page and that it was better to be just friends. I wanted more and you didn't. I decided to let you go because I felt it was something I had to do, not because it something I necessarily wanted to do.
I find it hard to open up to other people but you made it easy. I was told to be careful. I was told that not to get my hopes up and expect a great relationship. I should have ran away but I didn't and I'm glad I took the risk. I'm glad I put my heart on my sleeve for once instead of shying away because I was too scared of getting hurt.
When I was with you, my mind seemed quiet instead of loud and not many people can do that. You made me feel important and admired and most of all, comfortable. I thought being with someone would be hard but you made it easy.
If you're reading this, I hope you know that I will truly be a friend if you need me to be. If you need to vent after a bad day, if you need advice or if you just need some company, I will be here. I don't want you to avoid me because you think I'm upset or angry with you or because you think I don't care about you anymore and I hope you feel the same toward me.
Thank you for making me feel the way I did. Thank you for giving me many wonderful memories and moments. Thank you for letting me learn more and more about myself as my time with you went. Thank you for making me realize I am worth so much than I thought. I will miss what we used to have but, I think where we are right now is where we need to be.
Thank you, for everything.
