To the boy who cheated on me,
Hey it's me. I hope you're doing just fine. It's been a few years since we've meant something to each other. Sure we've have become friends again but it doesn't mean I have forgiven you for what you have done. As much as I try to live my life this is something that will affect everything that I do for the rest of my years. This letter is to a boy because a man would have never done what you did to me.
I've moved on but have not forgotten.
I haven't forgotten all the times I cried myself to sleep. I haven't forgotten all the times I woke up the next day with my eyes all swollen. I haven't forgotten the feeling of betrayal. I haven't forgotten the feeling of being your second choice. I haven't forgotten how I felt so stupid for thinking you would never hurt me. I haven't forgotten how I felt so damn stupid for believing in every word you said to me.
My only question is: Why?
You could have just left me to pursue her instead of leading me on. You could have given me a year of my life back after you started developing feelings for her. You could have saved us months worth of fighting and tears. You could have saved me from never trusting another person in my world again. You could have saved my friendships when I chose to believe you rather than them. You could have saved me a long summer of wondering what I did to deserve to feel like this. You could have saved me all that pain.
I bet you're reading this, thinking why would I ever write this. I bet you're thinking of what a bitch I am for putting on this internet for everyone to see. I bet you're thinking that I'm only writing this to bash on you. I bet if you ever come across this article and see that I wrote this you wouldn't even finish it all the way through.
But I want to thank you.
You broke me into a million pieces. You damaged me far beyond repair. I turned to nothing. I had to start all over again. But I grew from this. I went from a worthless piece of dirt to the confident woman I am today. I started as nothing and developed into something. I don't think I've ever felt this happy or this radiant before in my life. This experience gave me multiple life lessons. It taught me to be more careful about who I give my heart to. It taught me that not everyone I meet can be trusted. It taught me that life will not always be full of rainbows and sunshine. I think the most important thing this has every taught me was how strong I can be.
Thank you for that,
M
For the other ones who stumble upon this, you probably are thinking that I'm making a big deal out of a silly teenage relationship. Have you ever been hurt before? Have you ever been betrayed? Life has a domino effect if you didn't already know. Once one thing starts going wrong everything topples behind it. Only those who have ever been through this situation will ever know how it feels like.
