Dear Pap,

There are so many things that I wish I could tell you, share with you, laugh about with you and so many things I wish you could be here for. Every year, when the dreadful day that God called you home approaches, the emotion of sadness dwells on my heart. I miss you terribly, and there's just so much I wish I could say if I were given the chance.

One thing I would love to share with you is all my high school accomplishments, and tell you about graduation. I wish I could share with you my college experiences so far, because I know you would be so proud of my accomplishments. I wish that you could have been here to see that I'm engaged, and on my way to spending a lifetime of happiness with the man of my dreams. I wish that you could be here to see all the things going on in my life, but I know that you are in a much better place being pain free.

I would also let you know how grateful I am for having you as a role model and teaching me to be a good Christian. I will always remember sitting in the kitchen listening to you read the Bible. I'm so thankful that I now have your well-used Bible, and I hope to someday be as good of a Christian as you were.

If you were to be here right now, I would definitely let you know how much I love you. I can't begin to explain how much I regret not telling you how much I love you and how much I appreciate all of the times spent with you. I'm so grateful and thankful that I got to call you Pap. I miss all of your jokes and tricks, and all of your silly songs that you would sing. I'll never forget watching "Courage the Cowardly Dog" with you and helping you plant flowers in the garden. I wish I could spend one more Christmas season with you, or one more holiday dinner. All of the memories with you always make me smile, and I always wish that I were able to just share one more memory with you.

All of the memories that I have with you will always hold a very special place in my heart. I can only wish that my future children could have met you, but I know I will have the best memories to tell them. I know you will always be watching over me and you will be with me through all of the good and bad times. I know everyone says that time heals wounds, but nothing will ever fill the place in my heart that you filled. I can't want to see you again someday, Pap. I miss and love you more than words will ever be able to described.

And one thing is for sure,

"If tears and memories could build a lane, I would walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again."

With love,

Your Grandaughter