I don't quite know how to start this because I have so much I want to say. I guess I should start by saying sorry. I'm sorry for everything I have put you through. Sometimes, I'm not the easiest the deal with. I have had a lot of heartbreak in my life, not necessarily from past boyfriends, but from people I have loved. I have lost a lot of people in my life and I have loved lot of people in my life. It is a curse to have a big heart, because it is always getting broken. But, I wouldn't want it any other way, because I absolutely love loving you.

But, you already knew all of that stuff. I guess I just want to make sure that you know that no matter what happens between us, I will always love you. I know it's not easy to be with me sometimes, and I have become an expert on being alone, but I couldn't imagine my life with you. Ever since I was little, I imagined what it would be like to be married. I though it would be a wonderful experience. I always imagined it being like a fairytale. Of course, that was when I was a child. The way I view marriage has changed. I still imagine it being a wonderful experience, but an experience with a lot of battles. I promised myself that I would only marry one person, and I will stop at nothing to not only keep that promise to myself, but also to you. Call me old-fashioned, but I always imagined it that way. I don't open up to people very easy.

I want to finish this letter by saying thank you. Thank you for everything you have done and will do for me. Thank you for always being here for me and dealing with me. Thank you for never giving up on me. I know there will be times were it is hard to love me. I have no idea what would happen if I lost someone as special as you. I hope that we live a happy life together and get to do everything we want to do together. Thank you for staying by my side even at my lowest points. No matter what happens in our lifetime, I will always be thankful that you are in my life. I will always love you forever and always, no matter what.