Needy– adj., lacking the necessities of life. Independent—adj., free from outside control; not depending on another’s authority.

A lot of the time in my life, I like to contradict myself. “I’m going to eat healthy today,” is one of my famous lines, then you can catch me in line for ice cream. Other times they get a little more serious; “I do not need anyone to be happy,” then “for me to be happy, I need someone.” Contradictions are just a way of life for people like me who can’t seem to stick to something permanently.

So, you can see my dilemma. I like—no wait, LOVE attention from people. I thrive on compliments, I have high self-esteem, and getting told what I’m good at is like cocaine to me. But, there’s always another side. One insulting comment that involves something about me—e.g., something I’m passionate about, or a physical feature of mine, makes me go from 100 to 0 real quick. I’m very, very indecisive. When it comes down to serious life commitments, I go bonkers. In this day and age, needing someone is put down as being weak. But on the opposite side, not needing anyone is looked upon as putting up a front and not wanting affection.

This is a letter from me, and I consider myself a person who doesn’t need someone but loves someone. Not getting too sappy into my relationship, I am perfectly happy dating someone. I’m not dating him for his money or because he’s handsome, but because he makes me feel things that aren’t common in my generation. I feel safe when I’m with him, but I can also walk through a parking lot at night by myself and feel fine. I can spend a whole day with him, or I can go a whole weekend without seeing him. There’s not usually balance in my life when it comes to decisions, but from someone who is extremely needy but very independent, I can say there is a balance in some people.