Big,
This time last year when I was coming out for recruitment, I cannot even begin to explain how excited I was to start this new chapter in my life. It was almost like I was waiting for that moment for my entire life (because I kind of was, if we're being honest). As exciting as I was to accept my bid (for the best sorority ever), I couldn't wait to get my big.
I knew I wanted you the second we met and we talked about Ed Sheeran... the entire time. I remember going back to my room and practically screaming to my roommates that I was going to be your little. From that moment, you were "BIG" in my phone and I refused to change it. When you asked me to get Dunkin with you, I swear I was more nervous than if I were going out with a guy. No, like I rehearsed what I was going to say over and over again and changed my outfit a good ten times.
When I turned around to you on big/little reveal, I can't even begin to describe how happy I was. Naturally, I went back to my room and cried, happy tears, of course (while I was drowning in the hundreds of crafts you made me). You were my own little serendipity and still are to this very day. I cannot thank you enough for all you have done and will continue to do for me. You mean the absolute world to me and you truly are the best big, one of my best friends and future bridesmaids (if that day ever happens). And I refuse to bring up that God-awful "g" word in this, so we're going to continue to act like you're not leaving.
Now that the time has come and I'm starting my "hunt" (I feel weird saying that) for my own little, I can't help but think of how you must have felt when you were looking for me. It's f****** nerve wracking. But I'm even more thankful that I have you by my side teaching me your ways and always being my biggest fan. Although I'm really looking forward to being called "big," not being the one to sorority squat and showering my new little with gifts, she will never replace you.
However, she is undoubtedly going to be the luckiest girl in the world because she has me but she also has you. She has two people that will love her unconditionally and will be there for her whether she needs a fam date, a wine night, or just wants to hang out. I cannot wait for her to see exactly why I love you as much as I do.
I'm writing to let you know that nothing will ever change between us. There aren't enough words to describe how lucky I am to have you, especially through my (many) mental breakdowns. Thank you for being nothing less than perfect... always. I can only hope to have a little that looks up to me the way I look up to you.
Our tiny fam is growing, but I know I'll be a good big because I learned the best from you.
Ilysm,
Little
